Bad Reminders

I had a conversation with Dave tonight. It made me feel weird, talking about the past.

Apparently a bunch of people thought Dave was the one who got me pregnant. Haha that’s funny. Speaking of which, Wednesday Oct. 12th was the "anniversary"…of the end of the pregnancy. For anyone who reads this, yeah I got an abortion. And I didn’t even care.

I still don’t have any feelings about it, either.

He told me that after I called it off, he dated some other chick for 5 months, and then when that was over he said fuck it and pretty much turned into a slut. I ended it because I wasn’t the only one he was involved with, and it just killed me. I couldn’t live with that. I had to stop before I got more fucked up.

And I met Aidan on Dave’s birthday. We’ve been together for almost a year now. It was supposed to happen the way it did. But the past is still kinda painful. The whole thing with Dave was just one of many things that went wrong in 2004. Maybe if the timing had been different, things would have turned out. But it was definately for the best. If I’d kept messing around with Dave, I might not have ended up with Aidan.

I really should not talk to Dave, because it brings up alot of things I’d rather not think about or talk about. I just can’t seem to leave the past behind.