4/10/07

I really like Vince. We call each other every single day, and see each other every two days. He has so much goin on in his life and it’s hard to pin him down, but he’s so damn charming and awesome that those few hours I get to spend with him make it all worth it.

He came and grabbed me on the bike last night, we were just gonna hang out for a few hours becuz he had to go to work this morning. Well, he ended up asking me to spend the night, which is totally what I wanted to do anyways. He was supposed to be at work at 9:30 but then we ended up cuddling and he didn’t get to work till after 11. (lucky for him he’s the boss and he can get away with it)

I’m torn though. I really like him, and I know he likes me. We both like hanging out together and find each other interesting. I just don’t know if this is going to end up in a relationship or not. Vince lives his life day to day, and never knows what’s going to happen, so neither of us really knows what will happen between us. In a way, it’s like we’re together. We do things that couples do, but there’s no real relationship yet. It’s only been a week and a half, so it’s hard to say what will come in the future. I’ve never been the type to live in the moment, I always worry about what’s going to happen later, so in that way, he’s really good for me. He’s helping me to truly live life like I never have before. He’s getting me out wanting to do the things I used to be afraid to try.

You truly never know what life will bring, so you really have to live each day as if it were your last.

…………..It’s hard to keep your heart out of things when you find someone you click with……………………

In those quiet moments when we’re lying in his bed under his duvet, all I want is him. I love waking up next to him, it’s one of the best feelings in the world. We pretty much cuddle the entire time we’re together. Even when we’re riding on his bike we cuddle, it’s cute. He always reaches back to touch my leg, and asks how I’m doing whenever we stop.

When one of us rolls over in bed, the other instinctively turns and reaches for the other one. Then he caresses my face and neck in such a tender way it makes my heart hurt. And then he pulls me really close and kisses me, and it makes me sad. I just wish he was mine. It’s always so hard to kiss him goodbye each time because part of me wants so much to have more with him.

Each moment we spend together is beautiful in it’s own way. It makes me wish time would stop so we could stay there together in those moments forever.

I guess all I can really do is be myself, enjoy my time with him, and if it’s meant to be, we will end up together.

I hope fate is on my side this time.