9/20/05

Trying to think of something to say. It hasn’t been easy lately. Getting my point across. I stumble with the meaning i fumble the words togther. God how i just feel teathered to a place i want to escape from. I pull and i yank and slowly my heart just sank. Deeper into my chest then i thought it ever could. Would it but rise again i’d be the knoght in shinning armor that you can only read about. I’d route the evil doers save the day. It would be a good fantassy.

Instead i’m here, i don’t belong here. So long my dear i’m finally leaving this place. I just can’t face the rest of it any more. No comming to grips with the meaning of whatever. Forever away is where i want to go. Perhaps some sunny day. Rest assured i’m going nowhere remember i’m chained here.

Stale, thats all i can taste. Everything just seems so old. Bland, I could pick days at random they would all be the same. People say that, that is when you know it’s time for something new. Well thats fine for them I’m stuck here. This fucking muck is killing me. I need to readjust my head. I said it would get the best of me. One days rest from something normal.

My eyes are on the verge of leaving. I just don’t want to cry any more. another sigh escapes my lips. I’d just like to get my hands on some hips trace them with my fingers. My mind is wandering. Going a mile a minute. Infite curves to traverse across. My tounge waggles. What the hell does that mean. start the drug screening right here ::points at self:; No really. Heaven doesnt have anything that looks that good. If you went to hell i’d follow. Swollow my pride i know who is in charge here. Bat those eys bite that lip. A little twist a little dip it’s over for me. Lure me in with those lucious moves. Soothe me over with a hypnotic glance. A slow night of romance and then the light. Nothing in the morning empty bed, the smell of you still in my head alone again.