In a mood…

I was up just about all night last night. No particular reason, just got caught up watching Ozarks with my brother (Z), and didn’t go to sleep till 6am. So I slept till noon, when I got a text from the home health nurse asking if it was ok for her to come see me, to which I obviously said yes. She redressed my stump and said things looked good, as they should. I’m keeping an extremely close eye on my stump as well as the other foot. No more amputations!! I’ve had all I can take of the surgeries!

Ever since I got up I’ve had this kind of nauseous feeling that I have so often. I wish I knew what was causing it. I have meds for nausea, but this isn’t exactly nausea, just kind of similar. I know that sounds ridiculous, but I don’t know how to describe it any other way. I just know that it happens so often I’m tired of it. Beyond tired of it really. I just want one day, just ONE, where I wake up feeling good. Not just decent, but good. I don’t remember what that feels like. My positive attitude has fallen short today so far. I’m in a mood. Not exactly a bad mood, but not a good one either. I want to feel better. I just knew that once my amputation was done and there was no more bone infection I would feel better, which I do, but not as much as I had expected. Ok I’m done complaining now. I’ll be back when I can be more positive.