Residual Upset

 We really were spending too much time together. It’s true. But it’s still hard to be away from him for some weird reason. It really is very codependent. But I feel a million times better now that I talked to him. But it does feel weird being away from him, it really does. But I do need to be careful and make sure I don’t follow my codependent patterns, as difficult as that might be.

     It hasn’t even been a day yet and I miss him right now, only because I don’t really know how to occupy myself without involving another person… that being him. That’s a skill I really need to learn, and work on. I know things will get better now that we talked, and it’s just like I said, that’s what sets him apart from other guys, if he says something, it’s because he’s really thought, and reflected on it, and then responded. I know he means what he says. He will never just apologize because he knows he should. He’ll apologize because he means it. If he says he’s going to try to work on something, I know he will. 

    So, although there’s still residual upset on my side of things, I think over time things will start to get better. And I really, really hope that I’m not repeating the same mistakes over. That maybe, for once, I’m following the right path, and I’m with someone that isn’t going to repeatedly hurt me with the same things.