omg omg…freakout!!

omg…I"m such a spaz. Why do I go bsack and forth with my b/f all the time like this? I never know whether I want to be with him or not. I really am starting to feel more and more like I"m forcing myself to want to be with him. I Just don’t talk to anyone about it because I don’t want to hear anyone else say what I don’t want to hear.

Oh god…why do I tell him these things when I feel this way? Everything is only ever fine if we’re spending ridiculous amounts of time together. That’s when I can forget about how unsure I am of our relationship.

Something Steve said really made sense to me. He explained to me that when he broke up with me, the simple reason was just that he wasn’t happy. He said, "why be with someone when you’re unhappy?" He also said that he really had still loved me and it took a long time for him to get over.
But he really got me thinking. Am I unhappy with Rob?

ok so rob just called me back and everything is good, I am no longer crying hysterically and I’m going to continue to try and not think about all this crap and just let it be…*sigh*