Kinda really fucked up

Had a great day today. I was in the greatest mood all day for no apparent reason. Maybe the weather.

D didn’t pay any attention to me all day, and T was moody in the morning, just bloody ridiculous how snippy she was… and then D came into the kitchen right at the end of the day, and made a comment referring to some work-related thing "didn’t want to screw you guys" I laughed, because it’s a comment that normally he and I would joke about, then he threw a little piece of paper at T, and said, "well, on the other hand"

I was so mad! Like, how inappropriate is that? Not only is she my employee, and he is another manager, but really? She smiled, she seemed just as interested as I used to be. But I know better now… ugh… he’s so frustrating!

It wasn’t enough that he managed to break up my relationship, now he’s going to break up hers… he really needs to learn to think about what he’s doing… and there’s no real connection… what does he even know about her? Same as what he did to me… it was baseless… but I needed out of my relationship, so the fantasy was enough motivation to leave.

I think I’m in a good enough place though, to see it for what it really is. Like to look at my emotions from an objective point of view, and really see the situation. What’s going on between them is real enough that something could come of it, but given his track record, it’s not going to be pretty. He likes the chase, and the satisfaction it gives his ego. That’s all.

And he’s really good at it! But it’s actually astonishing… like in a "wow, you’re really messed up" kind of way. It kind of sickens me actually. Maybe I could use this to my advantage, and learn something. Something about him. Instead of being mad, or upset about it. He’s like Rob, just as emotionally destructive, but in a completely different way. Just, wow.