How Did I let Things Get so far?!

You always hear about relationships like mine. It always seems so crazy, that people put up with stuff like what he’s been doing to me lately. Its so EASY to sit on thge outside, hear what a person is saying and think “why can’t they just leave? I’d NEVER put up with that.”
But really, its so unbelievably differeny on the inside. Am I protecting myself by leaving? I’m not sure I understand everything that’s happened between us. How did I get here? I’m the girl that always speaks my mind and nbever tolerates any kind of bullshit whatsoever from anyone. I don’t understand how I got here. I’m flabbergasted, and I still need to let this sink in… Cuz I think this is it this time. But what’s next?