He’s just a selfish boy *sob*

Alright, well maybe I’m doing exactly waht I told Steelheart not to do…I really don’t know. But right now I’m upset. I was online a little while ago and my msn name probably said something that might make someone like STeve think that I was going to kill myself. it just said, "f4ck life" because I was upset, but to Steve, that says, "I want to kill myself". He started talking to me, asking me all kinds of questions, what’s wrong? I told him I was fine like, a jillion times. finally I said something along the lines of, "I want you to know, I’m not Jasmine! I’m not going to do something just because I’m upset." and I took the part off that upset him. He said, "ok, that’s fine." and started telling me about Jasmine, his ex, and how he met up with her that week that we had off. So we had a big discussion about her. I was upset about the fact that I didn’t really know about it, but it wasn’t really a big deal. I was just happy that Steve cared enough to ask about what was going on in my life. So just now, when I was all upset because I’m retarded like that, and I get upset about weird sh!t. I came online and his thing said away. I asked him if I could talk to him about some family stuff, it had nothing to do with anything between him and I. He didn’t answer, but within ten minutes, it said, "offline". I am SOOOOO ANGRY AND UPSET RIGHT NOW! I am bawling as I type this, quietly of course, because my grandparents are asleep just down the hall. It just made me realize that Steve really is a selfish person. He cares if I kill myself, because HE doesn’t want to have to have that on HIS conscience. He has said that he wants to be my friend…SOME FREAKING FRIEND! IT’s all fine and dandy for him to ask me questions about "well, someone told me you are pregnant!" or, "are you ok?" BECAUSE OF HIS PRECIOUS CONSCIENCE! I ask him for just a little bit of help, not once, but TWICE!!! And the fucking BASTARD won’t even TALK TO ME!!! Some LOVE TAHT TURNED OUT TO BE!!! He can’t even love me properly as a friend!!! I just wanted someone to love me, and understand me! He treated me so well, he made me feel like an equal, like I was worth something. And after all that…he just turned out to be really selfish…and I would do it all again just so I could feel the beauty of what we had…