Have no regrets, Only lessons

I’m not really sure who I am anymore. Everything I thought I loved, I’m not sure if it’s my unburning passion anymore. Like horses for example. I thought having horses one day and living in the country was what would make me happy.

But really, it’s just so crazy how happy I am right now. Being single, working in a grocery store for crying out loud, living in the city, having roommates, having friends to hang out with and do stuff with. Man, the list goes on and on.
I never thought I’d settle for less than what I wanted. But I just love this simple stuff. I love being able to drive 15 minutes to work every day. Or 15 minutes just to get whatever I need and not have to dedicate an entire day off to just driving doing errands.

I love having friends! I love not having to devote so much time to a "significant other" in my life. I can do whatever I want, because I’m so free.

And I actually don’t have a need for drama right now either. I’m happy with things the way they are. i don’t feel some crazy burning need to be loved by someone. So I also don’t have a burning need to get laid either. Although, I do get horny… lol hey, who doesn’t?

I do have a desire to better myself in certain ways, like I need to gain 10lbs lol, and take better care of my bunny rabbits. But so far, I’ve been doing a great job walking my dog every day, and that’s pretty big. I didn’t think I’d be good at that, but I’ve been good for almost a week now.

I just feel like I’m making really good progress, and I’m enjoying the direction my life is headed. I’m not even worried about finding someone else. So many people get upset that they’re getting older and they don’t have anyone. I’m not worried though… Because now I know better. I know that it’s better to have no one at all, than to have someone that you’re not satisfied with. And I’m ok with that.

Just knowing I have friends that care about me is enough. Even if they aren’t extremely close to me, I’m just glad. I’m content. I didn’t think this could ever happen. It’s almost sad that I spent so much time being afraid of this. But like a friend of mine who is no longer with us used to say, "have no regrets, only lessons"

And I really do try to live by that. It’s really beautiful. Because you can spend so much time beating yourself up over something that you can’t change, you can really paralyze yourself and make yourself miserable. And never move on to something better, or better yourself at all. You’ll be stuck forever… and so many people do that. So just make your mistakes a lesson, and try not to do it again. And if you do make the same mistake twice, get up and try again. Because it’s already in the past.

Well, I should go to bed, or tomorrow won’t be such a happy day!