Great…here we go again…

     I hate this. I hate everything. You fuck up once, and everything bites you in the ass. I don’t know…maybe I would just be better off dead or smth…I am so upset.

     Last night at like, 3am, my roomate Gill decided to start her own online diary. She was so excited about it. Then Sarah, the one who bought the millipede the day after I confessed it was my phobia got herself one too. They both wanted me to add them to my favourites list. I was like…uhhh…I’m thinking, this is my personal thing AWAY from you guys…this is where I put my thoughts ABOUT you when you upset me. This is where I got support when you guys STABBED ME IN THE BACK! Where I went when I had NO ONE! This is where I went when I had nothing…my ray of light…

    Well, I don’t really read over my entries when I’m done with them…this is where I go to think, hence my really long entries. I don’t like to read them over, because I write in here when I’m upset. Reading them over would bring me down on a good day. So when Jen came up to me and started yelling at me because she read something in here, I had no idea what she was talking about. Anything I write aobut anyone, I make sure that is personal…so I looked it over, and lo and behold…it’s a drunken entry. AGAIN, I F4CKED MYSELF OVER WITH ALCOHOL!!! I just want to crawl in a hole and die…

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December 12, 2006

🙁 i hope things get better

December 12, 2006

This is Jen…I suggest you read what you write before you publish it and quit getting piss drunk. Maybe then you’ll realize that the only person f*cking you in the ass and getting you in shit is yourself. No one is stabbing you in the back Nikki, you just don’t know when to keep some things private. It’s an ONLINE journal nothing is private. Don’t get pissed at Gil either.

December 12, 2006

does the last line NOT say that I f4cked mySELF over? IN BIG CAPITAL LETTERS NO LESS! And I would really like to know…where does it say that I’m mad at anyone?

In vino veritas.

December 13, 2006

Damn, not to get in the middle of a personal fight here but if any real-life friend of mine had a diary here (even if I knew there would be negative crap about me in it), there’s no way in hell I’d read it. This is my place to vent and even though it may be online, etc, it still doesn’t make it right to read if you know the person. That’s my opinion anyway.

December 13, 2006

Ryn: I try to reply to all notes. IF someone manages to make it through an entire mile long entry of mine, then they at least deserve a note. lol. So thanks for reading 😉