Feeling Progessively Worse as the day goes by…

     I feel like a bag of shit!!

I feel like I can’t do anything right…I can’t even fucking hold onto happiness when everything around me is just fine!! I always say the wrong thing and just fuck everything up. I can’t keep control of my emotions, and even when I try to be empathetic I just fucking upset people.

I’m just not fucking good enough no matter how hard I try!! I think I said the wrong thing to Rob’s mom on the internet, and his sister. And I think I did the right thing by confronting that Jill girl when she was trying to get a piece of him after a fucking funeral.

But for some reason two of Rob’s mom’s friends have blocked me. You know when someone blocks you on facebook because their comments on people’s walls and people’s pictures will still be there. But  you can’t click on their name because it’s greyed out. Plus their picture will become a sillouette.

So I’m wondering, what the fuck did I do?!! One of the friends has blocked Rob too…unless she has deleted her account…but that still doesn’t explain the other one that is still on Rob’s list but isn’t on mine…

What the fuck is worng with me?! Why I can’t I even be happy in a relationship with someone who I get along with so well and keeps me safe?! Why can’t I maintain a strong feeling of love for him?! Why the fuck does it go back and forth all th e time? And why the fuck can’t I control my jealousy, or any of my emotions at all?!!

What the fuck is wrong with me?!!!

*sobs throughout entire entry*