CODA

I had sex with O. And I feel like shit about it. As soon as I woke up this morning, I felt guilty, like I had done something wrong. It’s so easy to fall into old habits.
D said he didn’t do anything valentine’s day. He seems to be more stable lately as well. And here I am, screwing the first guy I have the opportunity to.
My CODA meeting today was good, unfortunately everyone talked so much I didn’t have the chance to. Which sucked because I finally got the nerve to speak when we ran out of time. I wasn’t sure that fucking people was an appropriate thing to share, but it really is the nature of my codependency, and I won’t get better if I don’t talk about it. At least I did get my something out of the meeting. Next week, hopefully I can talk about it. I feel awful.