waiting game

I cant help wonder why I still have no boyfriend at the age of 24. I find men attractive but there is something in me that says “get a boyfriend when you are ready” because I have lots of insecurities lies within me and I want to overcome it with myself before I engage in relationships. Now sometimes I get lonely and sometimes wish that there is someone I could constantly talk to, my friends are there but in a higher level of understanding I know a man couldn’t give me that, I just wish there is. HAHAHAHA WTH!  my sister told me am not the easiest person to understand, and I agree with her. I get jealous over petty things so I wanted to overcome that jealousy?  really though, my attitude as a whole. I’m really hoping that someone will love me as a whole even my stupid, petty, jealous biatch  attitude, and my friends keep on telling me that if I have a boyfriend they will be the luckiest person! Where the hell is he? HAHAAHA Well I prayed to God about this matter and he told me to wait, so while waiting lets enjoy this loneliness HAHAHAHA just kidding but really my life is not that boring and not that fun just in the middle

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December 11, 2020

Well I think your on the right path. I had a ton of boyfriends and 1 nightstands but my life is a mess right now. Well in my own head anyhows but I one day said crap on it I love being signal and not having to dill with someone else I could have been married was asked 3 times by 3 guys but I said no each time. Now I could really careless. But you being 24 people around you having someone can make you feel like an outsider but if you got things to work on then that is what should come first other wise you will be on a rollercoaster that never ends.