Truth vs. Lies

You know what I hate? I hate it when someone can’t tell you the truth and instead, slithers away and leaves you wondering why?

Beth did that very thing and you know what? I’m extremely disappointed because I thought we were close. She could have told me to stop talking to her but she didn’t. Instead, her b/f went and prevented me from talking to her. Couldn’t she have said something? No, she didn’t. Instead, I had to come up with some scheme to get her to talk to me and then HER B/F REFUSES TO LISTEN TO WHAT I HAVE TO SAY.

Right now, I found the truth I was seeking but in return, I had to do something I didn’t want to. Here’s a little except from our conversation:

lover_of_music says:

yeah, by older brother, do you mean that big joe guy?

I said maybe, you’re gonna be the one that saves me, and after all, you’re my wonderwall says:

ya

I said maybe, you’re gonna be the one that saves me, and after all, you’re my wonderwall says:

i know him

I said maybe, you’re gonna be the one that saves me, and after all, you’re my wonderwall says:

but he’s not my brother

lover_of_music says:

do you still talk to him?

I said maybe, you’re gonna be the one that saves me, and after all, you’re my wonderwall says:

he calls me his sister but he’s not my brother

I said maybe, you’re gonna be the one that saves me, and after all, you’re my wonderwall says:

no

lover_of_music says:

y not?

I said maybe, you’re gonna be the one that saves me, and after all, you’re my wonderwall says:

long story

lover_of_music says:

could you give me the short summary?

I said maybe, you’re gonna be the one that saves me, and after all, you’re my wonderwall says:

alright well he used to be a good friend gave me advice n stuff but he scared the shit out of me

I said maybe, you’re gonna be the one that saves me, and after all, you’re my wonderwall says:

he’d ask personal questions about my boyfriend and i so i stopped talking to him

I said maybe, you’re gonna be the one that saves me, and after all, you’re my wonderwall says:

i don’t need that shit

lover_of_music says:

would you talk to him?

I said maybe, you’re gonna be the one that saves me, and after all, you’re my wonderwall says:

right now

I said maybe, you’re gonna be the one that saves me, and after all, you’re my wonderwall says:

no

I said maybe, you’re gonna be the one that saves me, and after all, you’re my wonderwall says:

i haven’t talked to him in a long time and i’m not starting now

I said maybe, you’re gonna be the one that saves me, and after all, you’re my wonderwall says:

he scared me and i don’t waant any contact

I said maybe, you’re gonna be the one that saves me, and after all, you’re my wonderwall says:

don’t u be posin as him

I said maybe, you’re gonna be the one that saves me, and after all, you’re my wonderwall says:

or be him posin as u

I said maybe, you’re gonna be the one that saves me, and after all, you’re my wonderwall says:

lol

lover_of_music says:

eh?

I said maybe, you’re gonna be the one that saves me, and after all, you’re my wonderwall says:

cuz if so i aint stupid

lover_of_music says:

ah gotcha

I said maybe, you’re gonna be the one that saves me, and after all, you’re my wonderwall says:

jus tell me r u joe

Here’s a little more:

lover_of_music says:

i’m sorry but i wanteed to know the truth

I said maybe, you’re gonna be the one that saves me, and after all, you’re my wonderwall says:

u used me you bastard i thought someone needed help but u were lying

lover_of_music says:

come on beth, can I say something?

I said maybe, you’re gonna be the one that saves me, and after all, you’re my wonderwall says:

i’m gonna go now, and i’m changing who i am and u aint gonna find me

I said maybe, you’re gonna be the one that saves me, and after all, you’re my wonderwall says:

i am not havin another diary

lover_of_music says:

beth please?

lover_of_music says:

i just want one chance to say something

lover_of_music says:

you were telling me how I should talk it out with the person that i was having a problem with but I couldn’t! I really wanted to apologize for scaring you and it left a void in me. I just wanted to know the truth okay?

I said maybe, you’re gonna be the one that saves me, and after all, you’re my wonderwall says:

YOU ARE STALKING ME AND I AM SAVING THIS CONVERSATION BECAUSE IF U DO ONE MORE THING I WILL SHOW THIS TO THE COPS

Finally:

I said maybe, you’re gonna be the one that saves me, and after all, you’re my wonderwall says:

she came to me and i told her to say something happened because then she wouldn’t hurt you by saying u scare her so we got her a new online identity and we thought that it would work

I said maybe, you’re gonna be the one that saves me, and after all, you’re my wonderwall says:

i blocked you off her e-mail

lover_of_music says:

i wish someone had told me something

I said maybe, you’re gonna be the one that saves me, and after all, you’re my wonderwall says:

yeah well i wish you had just left her alone

See what I mean? I had to go through this crap to find out the truth. It’s easier to just get it out of the way than to lie or mislead someone. There’s more to this IM than what I gave you, but I was feeling really crappy until her b/f started accusing me of things I never did. What I did was wrong, and I know that. I only did it so I could find out the truth.

Now, I’m upset at him too because he wouldn’t accept what I was saying. As of right now, Beth doesn’t exist to me and after today, I’m not going to dwell on her any longer.