Pondering…

About what I wrote in the last entry. That wasn’t a cry saying that I desperately want someone, I was just informing everyone about the situation. The only reason why I included not to get my hopes up, is because the last two crushes I had, nothing came of it. With Rachel, she couldn’t date college guys (she’s 17); with Liz, she likes someone else and didn’t like me the same as I liked her. I also kept thinking and dreaming of what we could do together and stuff. That’s the thing I want to prevent.

Anyway, I’ve also noticed something. Everytime I’m talking to someone in a conversation, I’m the one who comes up with the questions. I kinda hate that because it seems that the other person isn’t as interested. I also feel that I get on their nerves about the questions. The other thing is that I can come up with all kinds of questions, but I don’t get any back :-(. So for the time being, I won’t ask questions aside from the “what’s up?” or “how are you”?

I don’t get any phone calls, e-mails or visits. Ah well, I do call a lot of people, but never get calls back. I don’t e-mail s many people as I should; and I do visit people in the Village, but only one person has actually visited me. So it sucks, but I guess the guy always have to visit and stuff right? heh.

Tonight, I’m going to Newton’s football game. My ex, Danielle, should be there unless she’s not in the band anymore. We don’t really talk, but we can have a decent conversation with one another.

Tomorrow, my old high school will be involved in a band festival. Last year, the drumline did the worst in its young history. I hope tomorrow will be a much different story. Have a good day everyone.