Not What you Think

On one of my questions I put in a quiz, I asked, “What is the one thing I love about relationships?”

A. SEX BABY!!!!!!

B. Being able to love someone and have them love you back

C. Just to have someone to call my girl

D. Just cuz

The answer is B.

The thing I don’t want right now is a relationship where I’m unhappy. I’ve had that before and it sucks. I also don’t want a purely physical relationship where the love is as dry as the Sahara desert. I’m very much into the mental aspect of the relationship as well. One of the things I love, is when the love is there, the physical aspects are 100x better. Case in point, if you are in love, cuddling is awesome. I also love it when you can sit there with your sweetheart and never run out of things to say. You feel that you can say whatever, do whatever, and still feel comfortable around this person. That’s what I miss.

I also miss being romantic towards my sweetheart. This was one of the things I had planned to Liz: I was going to have a candlelight like dinner and be outside on the deck. Then, I would have our song playing in the background and kind of have a “dance”. However, that won’t happen.

Another thing I wanted to do with a potential girlfriend is sit outside and look up at the sky. Then, I would take my limited knowledge of astronomy and point out the different stars, constellations, etc. all bundled up in blankets.

I also miss being held and holding the one I love.

It’s amazing when you are in love, and you can’t wait to see that person pop up online or you know you will see that special someone that day or whatever. It’s also great when you make plans together or heck, just show up when you feel like it.

Lately, sooo many people I know are in love or getting in that stage. I’m happy for them because love doesn’t come all that often. I’m in a situation where I’m in the Sahara desert and I can’t find an oasis anywhere. Meaning there are no crushes or heck, people to flirt with. I keep my head up high but it just aches me that I don’t have anyone to love, be romantic, show caring, and just making them feel much better when they get to talk to me.

That’s what I miss, and dadgumit I need to find that oasis to get me out of this Sahara desert. 🙁

*One little piece of note here, I don’t want notes saying, ‘oh you’ll find her soon’ or something along those lines. I know love is bound to come my way, but this was just a way to get my thoughts off of my chest and get them out in the open.