Last Entry…

was #600 for this diary. I didn’t think about it until today. Today, I have been up and down emotionally today. Right now, I’m feeling much better though. Here’s an explanation.

Yesterday, I told Liz I had a crush on her. This was a bad idea for a few reasons: she just got out of a relationship, and we had gotten a lot closer and stuff. However, last night, I kept dreaming about this upcoming weekend because we’re going to her house and picking up a puppy. I kept dreaming we were back together and everything, getting my hopes up you know? Then today, I thought of some scenarios so that we could spend more time together. I realize after a while that I was an idiot for getting my hopes up because she couldn’t just jump from one relationship to the next. I was really down at that point and was just very upset over my dating situation. I ended up taking a two hour nap and feeling better.

The entire weekend, I had intended on doing three things: finish chapter 6 in American Government, finish chapter whatever it is in Astronomy, and take a chunk out of the study guide for the test in American Government. As I said two entries ago, I had a fun weekend. Anyway, I was going to start on Chapter 6 in American Government but Liz was on. We got to talking and she gave me some valid points but it appeared I didn’t heed those well. She was frustrated to the point where she just gave up and got offline. Once again, I was down. I had been grasping at straws kinda but i’m not going to do that.

Then, I went to the Village Rec Center and shot the ball around. I couldn’t put all my effort into a jump shot. I just kind of lofted the ball up to the goal and would slowly walk to get the ball back. Then, I decided to get back to my normal self and I did that by starting to elevate more and put more energy into my shots. I even ran around the court and try to make crazy shots from whatever position I was in. This felt great and I made one last shot and I pumped my fist into my chest because I had succeeded in making myself feel better. When I got back, I got on an MSN.com chat for singles (I was bored). I met this girl from Miami named Annie and she helped me feel better too. I did finish chapter 6 in American Government, but I haven’t done any notes or anything.

BTW, I’m on the new AOL 8.0. It’s weird, I’ve had every version of AOL since 3.0. Crazy stuff.

Oh yeah, one last thing. I have to prepare a 4-6 minute speech for my Human Communications class. I will give that speech the first Monday in November. My topic will be traditional vs. online dating. That should be loads of fun. I also volunteered to go first.