Conversation with Beth

This is part of a conversation that deals with Beth’s decision to commit suicide and my helping her out.

Bethie Beth Luvs her Hunny Bunny says:

this is my version of james bond:

Bethie Beth Luvs her Hunny Bunny says:

My name is Pid… Stu Pid

Big Joe says:

heh

Bethie Beth Luvs her Hunny Bunny says:

lol this guy in my school named Sheibon always says “my name is Bon… Sheeeeeiiiiiiiiiiiiibon”

Bethie Beth Luvs her Hunny Bunny says:

he’s really wierd and no one likes him but i talk to him because i felt bad for him and he’s actually really nice

Big Joe says:

ah i c

Bethie Beth Luvs her Hunny Bunny says:

i told people not to judge him cuz they don’t even know him

Bethie Beth Luvs her Hunny Bunny says:

he’s really really nice

Big Joe says:

you’re taking a page out of my book

Bethie Beth Luvs her Hunny Bunny says:

yup

Bethie Beth Luvs her Hunny Bunny says:

i always do

Bethie Beth Luvs her Hunny Bunny says:

i hate people who are mean to kids like that in school, i used to be one of them so i like making them feel like at least one person cares about them

Bethie Beth Luvs her Hunny Bunny says:

i’ve made a lot of friends that way

Big Joe says:

b/c I did you that way

Bethie Beth Luvs her Hunny Bunny says:

yuppers

Bethie Beth Luvs her Hunny Bunny says:

also my experience

Big Joe says:

did you really think about suicide?

Bethie Beth Luvs her Hunny Bunny says:

yea

Bethie Beth Luvs her Hunny Bunny says:

but i know now that it’s stupid

Bethie Beth Luvs her Hunny Bunny says:

if i did anything i wouldn’t have met you, or Vladimir

Bethie Beth Luvs her Hunny Bunny says:

and that would be the cowards way out, i actually faced the music and i got through a lot of stuff

Big Joe says:

what was going on at that time?

Bethie Beth Luvs her Hunny Bunny says:

i had a bf but i didn’t love him i just was sorta close to him, but he was over the neta

Bethie Beth Luvs her Hunny Bunny says:

*net

Bethie Beth Luvs her Hunny Bunny says:

and he was killed in a car accident

Big Joe says:

kyle?

Bethie Beth Luvs her Hunny Bunny says:

yeah

Big Joe says:

i remember reading abou thim

Bethie Beth Luvs her Hunny Bunny says:

i thought i loved him but i know i didn’t

Bethie Beth Luvs her Hunny Bunny says:

i barely knew him

Bethie Beth Luvs her Hunny Bunny says:

and it was NOTHING compared to how i feel about Vladimir

Big Joe says:

was that all going through your life?

Bethie Beth Luvs her Hunny Bunny says:

no not really

Bethie Beth Luvs her Hunny Bunny says:

friends were ditching me, my parents were fighting my dad was getting worse, a friend i had was getting worse with cancer

Bethie Beth Luvs her Hunny Bunny says:

she was over the internet, we talked for about 3 years and i dunno where she is now

Bethie Beth Luvs her Hunny Bunny says:

sorta hoping for the best

Bethie Beth Luvs her Hunny Bunny says:

my grandfather was in the hospital with cancer

Bethie Beth Luvs her Hunny Bunny says:

my grandma was in and out of the hospital with some lung thing and a form of parkinson’s

Big Joe says:

did your sister try to help you?

Bethie Beth Luvs her Hunny Bunny says:

yeah but she’s far away

Bethie Beth Luvs her Hunny Bunny says:

and she got jumped by some guy so she was recovering

Big Joe says:

so there was no one to help you?

Bethie Beth Luvs her Hunny Bunny says:

nope

Big Joe says:

in all actuality, this is how I found you

Big Joe says:

you know how on fod you log into your diary and you see the recent entries?

Bethie Beth Luvs her Hunny Bunny says:

yeah

Big Joe says:

well, and you also know about the 6 entreis you can take a peek at their entry right?

Bethie Beth Luvs her Hunny Bunny says:

yeah

Bethie Beth Luvs her Hunny Bunny says:

mine was there?

Big Joe says:

I saw yours in that cluster

Bethie Beth Luvs her Hunny Bunny says:

really

Bethie Beth Luvs her Hunny Bunny says:

wow

Big Joe says:

so you had updated right when I signed on

Bethie Beth Luvs her Hunny Bunny says:

lol………. thanx for logging on when you did

Big Joe says:

you’re welcome

Bethie Beth Luvs her Hunny Bunny says:

wow that’s wierd

Bethie Beth Luvs her Hunny Bunny says:

i believe things happen for a reason

Big Joe says:

yeah it i

Big Joe says:

s

Big Joe says:

you could have blew me off too

Bethie Beth Luvs her Hunny Bunny says:

i was just so surprised someone replied

Bethie Beth Luvs her Hunny Bunny says:

ur the only one who did

Bethie Beth Luvs her Hunny Bunny says:

well my sister obviously but she knows me

Big Joe says:

it was one of those chain letter type things

Bethie Beth Luvs her Hunny Bunny says:

you didn’t and i was like so surprised someone would take up their time to reply

Big Joe says:

did you see the note immediately or what?

Bethie Beth Luvs her Hunny Bunny says:

i saw it like half an hour later

Big Joe says:

were you about to DO it?

Bethie Beth Luvs her Hunny Bunny says:

no

Bethie Beth Luvs her Hunny Bunny says:

i was gonna see if anyone cared enough to reply

Big Joe says:

ah

Bethie Beth Luvs her Hunny Bunny says:

and if anyone did i’d see what they had to say and base my decision on that

Bethie Beth Luvs her Hunny Bunny says:

so thanx broggy!!

Bethie Beth Luvs her Hunny Bunny says:

i guess the entry was a cry for help

Big Joe says:

maybe

Big Joe says:

b/c I have seen that before

Bethie Beth Luvs her Hunny Bunny says:

but like, not intentionally you know?