Butterflies in Flight pt. 3

The next day, I was lying around in my bed when someone clamped a hand over my mouth. Then, my attacker pinned me down. I got a good look at him and was shocked. It was Troy!

“Troy, I don’t know what you are doing but you need to get the hell off of me!” I yelled. I tried to get him off but he was too strong. Even my karate skills wouldn’t work.

“Claudia, I am very disappointed/angry at you. If I wanted, I could have had a gun or a knife to make you see things my way. However, I’m a pacifist so I don’t believe in using those methods to show you how disappointed I am with you.”

“What’s it to ya?”

“Do you realize how much you hurt Victor last night?”

So this was why he came over here like this…I should have known, “He was cheating on me with that ho,” I said.

“Get a hold of yourself Claudia. If you could get your head out of the gutter, you would see that Victor loves you. Or should I say, loved. He told me last night about the confrontation you two had. I am very upset at you for jumping the gun. Frankly, I hate the way you have slanted me and have started to slant him…with your stupid attitude. It’s all about you and your being miserable. It’s all about how you’re not supposed to date other guys. Get a grip! You didn’t give Victor a chance in the first place. All you could think about was “what if?” I don’t even know why I bothered to remain your friend. You’re nothing but a spoiled, selfish, inconsiderate bitch!” His words stung me in my soul. “Oh yeah, and I have something for you,” he pulls out a letter. It’s from Victor.

Dear Claudia,

I am very upset at your actions last night. The girl who was with me that night was my friend April Hinson. She was coming to help me with our project in science. Anyway, I am outraged with your accusations. I loved, well, I don’t know what to call it for you would not give me a chance to prove myself. I understand about the hand holding thing and the kissing. What I didn’t understand was how could you compare me to Sean? I am honest, trusting, faithful, loving, and romantic guy you have ever met. That may sound like I’m egotistical but that is far from the truth. I am very humble and down-to-earth. To me, you are very self-centered and want others to pity you. I don’t know why I fell in love with you in the first place. Why should I bring myself down by dating someone whom cares more about her than me? Basically, I’m telling you to take a hike. That’s right, I’m breaking up with you. Don’t try to win me back because you have hurt me tremendously. Well, I’m going to let you go now. Oh yeah, I don’t want to talk to you ever again. Got that?

Tears flowed hard down my face. He was breaking up with me! All because I had accused him of something he didn’t do. He was everything he said in the letter. How stupid of me! I buried my face in my hands.

“Well, now do you see why I told you to straighten out your act before you lose everything?” I nodded dumbly. “Usually, when Victor sets his mind to something, it’s hard to make him change his mind. He’s very stubborn. This is your doing. You could have had the best boyfriend but you blew it. Now he’s gone for good. You have truly hurt him,” Troy climbs up off of me. He begins to walk out of my room.

“Troy,” I say weakly, “is it possible that he would take me back?” I didn’t want to know the answer, but I had to ask. Troy stops in his tracks but doesn’t turn around. I can sense that he’s trying to formulate an answer to my question, or he could be torturing me. Either way, what he reveals to me can depress me, or lift my spirits. He lowers his head, sighs, and murmurs one word that is barely audible.

“Yes.” He walks out of the room. I don’t know if he meant yes to make me feel better, or yes Victor would genuinely take me back. I began forming a plan in the back of my head. I quickly logged on to my computer, got online and sent him a long e-mail.

Victor,

I know I’m the last person you want to hear from but hear me out. I’m sorry for hurting you, I really am. I’m just insecure you know. I just jumped the gun and for that I am sorry. I don’t know if you’ll ever forgive me, but I realize that you are the best boyfriend I could ever ask for. I am sorry that I compared you to Sean. I realize now

how much I hate him. Troy was over here and he helped me see the light. I’m thankful I have him in my life you know? Listen, I realize that I love you! That’s right, I said I love you. I tried not to think about it but it’s overwhelming. I love everything about you! I love your smile, your laugh, your soul, your personality, how you hold me, how we have fun together, everything! You are my everything. Like the song says, “…I am nothing without you/I know better now/I’ve had a change of heart…” you know the rest. I want to call you but I don’t know if it will be a good idea. Please forgive me? With all my love, Claudia.