Butterflies in Flight pt. 2

“Hey Claudia, what’s up?”

“Umm…how did you get my number?” I asked.

“Troy gave it to me. Anyway, he told me some nice things about you,” he said.

Blushing, I could only giggle back, “Oh did he? What kind of things?”

“That you are a hot, sexy mama.” My cheeks must have been as red as a volcano. This guy was charming!

“I don’t know about the mama part, but I am hot and sexy,” I giggled some more.

“Anyway, I just called to get to know you more. I think you would be hot if you didn’t run all the time when we meet.”

“I’m sorry Victor, I really am, but I don’t think I’m ready to get in a relationship this quick.”

“Oh,” I could sense disappointment in his voice. I felt like kicking myself for telling him what I told him, “I wasn’t really looking for a relationship right off the bat because Troy filled me in on what happened between you and Sean. I know it’s hard to get in one serious relationship and wondering if you should ever date anyone else. Believe me, I’ve been there.”

“Oh Victor, I didn’t mean to jump the gun as quickly as I did,” I stared into space with a wistful expression on my face. Victor seemed like a great guy, but it wouldn’t be right for me to see someone at the moment. After all, I wasn’t physically or mentally ready for a serious relationship.

“Tell you what. We’ll get to know each other as friends first and then we’ll see if we should pursue our friendship further,” he said.

“That sounds like a good deal,” I agreed with him.

For the next few weeks, we enjoyed numerous conversations on the phone. With each phone call, I started to like Victor more and more. I started to reveal more and more about me to Victor and he did the same. Our friendship grew to the point where we would spend weekends at each other’s houses. We became inseparable. I enjoyed his personality, looks, and his soul. I think he enjoyed my sexiness teehee.

Anyway, his parents loved me and my parents loved him; our parents loved each other as well. There was one special incident that I’ll cherish forever. We were walking in the park when Victor and I started to have a conversation about nature.

“You know, it’s amazing how much nature can heal your spirits,” Victor remarked out of the blue.

“Yeah it is. I never realized how nature is soothing. I mean, we experience the smell of grass, whistling of the leaves, flowers blossoming, and the melodic sound of water. Also, we’re hearing birds chirping and…” Victor interlocks his fingers into mine. I feel an electric tingle the moment our hands touched. I looked into his eyes and he smiled. I quickly withdrew my hand and ran away crying.

The next time I saw him, he told me my running away was understandable. He figured that he had jumped the gun a little too fast. Smiling up at him, I gave him a hug to seal the deal and left for my next class. On Friday night, he took me out to the movies to “get away from school”. He was very sweet and dear to me that night. We would comment on the actors, costumes, and the plot. At some point, I knew that I liked him in the boyfriend kind of way. Once again, he interlocked his fingers into mine. This time, I looked up at him and smiled. I then snuggled close to him and he wrapped his right arm around me. We were official.

For the next few months, we enjoyed hanging out together at his house, my house, the movies, the park, wherever. I didn’t care where we went, just as long as we were together. When I was sick with the flu, he sent me get-well cards, roses, teddy bears, candy, and he spent time out to see me. During those visits, I realize that there was something special about him. With every date, I was happy, yet nervous about our situation. I could tell he was falling in love with me but I tried to down play it. I was adamant that I would not fall for another Sean. There was one night when I just lost it.

“Hey babe! What do you say we hang out at my house for the night and we could watch movies?”

“Hey that sounds like a great idea. What time do you want me over there?”

“Well sexy mama, I’d say you need to get your butt down here before I start to cool down,” he teased me.

“Hold your horses. Your sexy mama is on her way,” grinning from ear to ear, I headed to his house as quickly as I could. The night was wonderful. We spent time watching movie after movie. We cuddled on his couch. It was then, that he went to kiss me.

“What are you doing?” I say. The tone of my voice indicated a mix of surprise, anger, and fear.

“I was kissing you,” he said looking at me.

“I know that but why?”

“That’s what boyfriends and girlfriends do,” he states matter-of-factly.

“You’re just like all the other guys. You think that you can put your hands all over your girlfriends at will. Well I have news for you: I am not just like any average girlfriend,” I glared at him and pierced his ego. I had truly hurt him but I didn’t care.

“I…thought you loved me,” he was truly hurt.

“NO! You’re only going to abuse me and hurt me like Sean did. I…can’t let you do that!”

“Oh I see, so when did you start comparing me to Sean? I know what he was like, he was a total jerk, abusive, and manipulator. I am more than what he could be.” He glared at me.

“That’s what all guys say! How could I ever fall in love with a guy who would do nothing but lie to me.”

“You know, I don’t know why I bothered to go out with you. From what Troy told me, you are a lovely girl and we would have been great together. Frankly, I hate the way you have treated me lately. You seem intent on being Sean’s girl. When are you going to realize that you need to move on!”

“You have no right to talk to me in that manner. You have NO idea what I’ve been through. No one does!”

“You, you, you! It’s all about you! ‘Oooh I’m hurt; I can’t date any guy; I am miserable, blah blah blah. When are you going to grow up! Now, I would advise you to get out of this house NOW!”

“FINE!”

“What’s going on Victor?” a young female voice asked. Startled, I look up to see a girl who was my age, with fair skin and rounded in the right places.

“WHO THE HELL IS SHE VICTOR? IS THIS WHO YOU ARE REPLACING ME WITH? SOME TRAMP?”

“Claudia, I think you better leave now.” I can tell that I struck a nerve but I didn’t care. Obviously, Victor was cheating on me. I was furious!

“Claudia, it’s not what you think…” she tried to say.

“I DON’T CARE YOU HO! YOU WERE GOING TO STEAL VICTOR FROM ME WEREN’T YOU!” I was ready to tear her to pieces.

“CLAUDIA, GET THE HELL OUT OF MY HOUSE NOW!” I looked deep into his eyes. He really wanted me out of his house!

I drove home with tears in my eyes. How could he? I thought we were doing great. Face it, you were being a jerk to him all along. What did you expect? It was only natural that he wanted someone to be able to kiss and love. You were too stubborn to accept the fact that you love him. “No, that’s not it,” I said to the voice in my head. “He was a cheater, a liar, and a manipulator. I don’t need him!” I wiped my face as hard as I could. There was no way I would date guys again. I wish God could kill all of the guys on this Earth at once. You can spare Troy though, I thought to myself.