Yippee skippy

I’m writing on my iPhone which means a short entry. Aren’t you lucky.

Sooooo last night was a success on all accounts, except I wish I hadnt invited Jason. He was cool and fun but I think Will and I should’ve had more alone time. Jason was for reals 3rd wheeling it.

Had Kaddy drive me there, we had drinks and Will met us there. Kaddy was a great buffer and then she left. Will and I walked to the venue and Jason was waiting for us there. We all went to dinner at a Mexican restaurant/bar and when we were about to enter the show venue, will and Jason decided to go to the store to get cigs.

Knowing that I would see C in the bar, I opted not to go to the store with them and go inside alone. I sat at the bar and soon enough, C came waltzing by. I said HEY and he and I chatted and I got a free vodka/soda. Rad. He is so adorable. I will always have a crush on him.

Oh FYI, I looked red hot last night. I curled my hair into soft waves and wore a rockin’ outfit. I felt goooood.

Will and Jason came back and we did the show routine, lots of standing around talking waiting for bands to start. Once the final band did start, I was not interested. I left the show area and went to the bar to see C. I am awful.

Will met me at the bar. We talked and talked, Jason left, we talked more. He said he gave up on our relationship. I said I put too much pressure on us. He said he was going to propose. I said we just needed to live for awhile before making that big of a commitment.

Then I kissed him. At the bar. In front of C.

We went outside and made out for awhile. He had me with my back against the wall of a building and we were just going at it.

I took a cab home solo which is surprisingly an easy thing to do when you are terrified of intimacy.

Aaaaand now I’m at home because I took the day off. Really didn’t feel like going to work today.

Oh, this morning in my still-drunk morning stupor, I had a Facebook chat convo with P. Yes, P. Obviously he popped into my head a time or two during my talk with Will, considering he was the catalyst to the breakup. He is so funny, I do miss him. I’m a fucking mess.

The nice thing is that with Will, it feels natural. Normal. Right. It feels like home.

Plus, I kind of have butterflies. Eek.