Massive eye roll

Mmmmm cookie. I have a cookie a day. I can’t help it. I eat this majorly awesome salad full of goodness, and then immediately crave something made of butter, sugar and chocolate. Life is all about balance.

And coffee. Cookie and coffee. THE BEST after lunch treat. I drink tea all day but have one 12 ounce coffee a few times a week. Mostly only when I have a big night ahead of me… otherwise coffee seems a bit extreme.

Yoga last night was interesting. The class was nearly empty, only about 6 of us which is a drastic contrast from the classes I normally attend. I kinda liked it. The instructor had us doing repetitive poses which got a little boring after awhile. To occupy my mind I made up raps about yoga and had a whole music session happening in my head. It was pretty rad, I am a star. A B-Star. At least I was in my head concert.

I’m not nearly as sore after that class as I was after Monday’s. Also I drank four beers when I got home. And I was pretty drunk after those 4 beers. I haven’t been hitting the sauce quite as hard as normal lately, so my tolerance has gone way down. Cheap drunk YAY.

I appreciate the support with Hippy Crush…. I am unfortunately quite timid and I can’t quite bring myself to go back into the store. Mostly because I don’t need to buy anything. It’d be a little awkward to go in there just to talk to him. Depending on the results of my night out with Will, I will either pursue Hippy Crush with a vengeance or leave it alone. RESULTS PENDING

What I’m trying to get away from is ending this whole Will thing out of fear and not because of a legitimate reason to be adverse to having romantic feelings for him.

I feel a little guilty because we DID have sex (although I was Drunky McDrunkerson…. any time I wake up and don’t really remember the sex, I wonder why the dude pursued it in the first place…. like wasn’t I obviously intoxicated? I’m not saying they did anything wrong because I was there too, but I mean, to not remember something you have to be pretty hammered…) and I’m sure sex is probably not something I should’ve done WITH HIM unless I was really serious about the direction it was headed…. and at that time I still wasn’t sure and was feeling fickle and wishy washy so I shouldn’t have done that. BUT I WAS DRUNK. All is forgiven.

I was chatting with Will on Gchat this morning and he said he got me a Christmas present. My eyes are rolling so far back in my head round and round and round. Massive eye roll. Entire head roll. I swear, people that I really don’t want to get me things are the ones who get me things!

Case in point, one of the adjusters here, who I call Doodles, is basically my arch nemesis. He is so hot and cold and I never know what I’m going to get with him. He can act sweet as pie to my face, be all buddy-buddy, but then tells my bosses that I have an attitude and don’t respect him as a manager. Seriously. He did that. And then, he goes to Pike Place Market and buys me chanterelle mushrooms. The other day he gave me a $18 22oz bottle of beer…. just to be nice. And I’m like, WHY won’t you just let me hate you?!

I realize how bratty I sound and I swear to you and you and you that I am very cordial outwardly. Respectful, witty, gracious and kind. But to compensate for my outward loveliness, I have lots of tar and mud bubbling up on the inside. All about balance, folks.

On the flip side, I AM IN SUCH A GOOD MOOD TODAY. I am literally floating. Okay not literally. But I feel fantastic! I have to assume that part of it is the power of YOGA. It is made of magical happy juice.