Loser

Excuse the pity party for this entry.

I decided, since the kickball tourney I was supposed to go to in Portland is full, that I’d plan a little get together for my birthday this weekend.

Made an FB event, that whole thing. Planned a beach happy hour for Saturday.

Invited many, many people, including all of those who were supposed to go to the kickball tourney. I knew they wouldn’t have plans.

Immediately, I kept getting nothing but rejections.

"Sorry, my brother’s in town"

"I think I have something going on that night…"

"I am camping that weekend"

All fairly legit excuses.

But it bummed me out. I don’t like being rejected.

So I canceled the event and decided to just reach out to my nearest and dearests, knowing they’d want to party with me.

Invited Jason. Invited Tanya and Nick. Invited Lisa. Invited Melissa. Invited Dave.

Mind you, I just got back from a camping trip for Jason’s birthday. I went 2.5 hours out of the fucking city, got him moonshine, celebrated his birthday with him.

He said, "I made a commitment to someone else’s party that night, sorry"

I asked whose party?

He said, "Carson’s"

I don’t know a Carson. Apparently he’s just a guy.

That hurt.

Melissa is out of town this weekend.

Dave will TRY to come but he’s working on his truck.

Lisa is backpacking.

Tanya and Nick are also going to this Carson person’s party on Saturday.

It will literally just be me and Paco at the beach.

My closest friends are going to a party for some guy I’ve never met, instead of celebrating with me.

I’m pretty fucking bummed.