Hott mess

I failed NoJoMo. Big fail. Put that fail on my tab for the weekend shit show.

It was such a shit show. So much that I am taking a break from drinking for awhile. The fact that I had alcohol withdrawal symptoms this morning is disturbing and awful. I was shaking and my whole body hurt.

Doesn’t help that I didn’t eat much at all during the whole weekend but drank heavily saturday and Sunday.

So. What happened? Saturday I went to Teatro Zinzanni with the family. It was a cool but looong show. Then I met up with my friend Nate and a few of his friends. We bar hopped and nothing terribly interesting or exciting happened… I just know I got drunk.

Sunday I woke up to a text from my Seahawks season ticket holder friend offering me tickets. I called Jason and was like ‘we’re going to the Seahawks game!!’ What I didn’t know is that I had to print the tickets one hour before the game started. Well, I didn’t. And then I lost the tickets. I found out 30 seconds before Jason pulled up to my apartment.

Oh well. We went to a bar and met up with a couple of Jason’s friends. We watched The Bears game and drank pitchers of beer and I realized at half time I was drunk. I powered through and kept drinking beers and ate half of a garden burger and no fries.

Paco, Dave and Josh were the dudes we were with. I had a great time chatting and football watching and le me tell you, Dave was very nice to look at. Hot.

Paco said he’d walk me home, and at this point I was absolutely hammered. I lunged at him and we made out and fell down a few times and were just hot messes. He came home with me and we made out and rolled around and got naked and almost had sex. But didn’t. I think I freaked out a bit.

Paco was seriously into me. He was in awe of me and my body and kept telling me over and over how beautiful I am. It was nice. I could get used to that.

I am not into him, however. He has a killer body… I mean, at one point last night he was laying in my bed naked and I scanned his body and was like WOW. Slender but muscular with fantastic arms and great tan skin. He just got back from Argentina and he clearly got some sun down there.

But that’s about where it stops. He has a really high voice and a lisp and I’m sorry but I can’t get past that. Hard to get turned on with a voice like that. If he just shut up and walked around without a shirt all the time, I might be more tempted.

Plus he’s flat broke from his trip to Argentina and doesn’t even have a phone. Soooo that’s not really working for me.

Especially since I’ve been daydreaming about dating Will AND his money. I paid for everything while he was in school and never got to enjoy it being the other way around. I wanted to go to culinary school once he graduated and that obviously never happened. He’s now an engineer and drives an Audi with leather seats and has all sorts of expensive gadgets.

So Paco left this morning and I stayed home ‘sick’ from work. I hate that I got so drunk yesterday and am missing work because of it. It is so irresponsible and it’s the second time in a week i’ve done it. Bad. Very bad.

I forced myself to eat a salad and a few bites of whole wheat pasta because I stepped on the scale this morning and realized I’ve lost 5 pounds in the last couple days. I guess that’s what happens when you don’t eat.

This whole Penn State thing is so sick. Whenever I see Sandusky I get nauseous. It is just so terrible. Yuck.