All work, some play
Next to last day of NoJoMo and I CANT WAIT for it to be over. It was a pretty legit challenge and I only missed one day, which is a miracle. But, on days like today, I literally have nothing to say and it’s not easy to just pull things out of my ass to put on paper.
I mean, there’s a few things happening in my life but I do not want to talk about Destiny or Will because I don’t really have to deal with either for a few days. Okay fine, I’ll just write out my week’s plan. Have fun reading, if at all possible.
– Yesterday: Work, der, then I went home and cleaned, smoked weed, ate roasted vegetables and watched The Sing Off finale. Texted with my mom.
– Today: Work, duh, then meeting the girls downtown to celebrate (ONCE AGAIN) my sister’s birthday. We’re going to a wine bar and I have already promised Baby Jesus that I wouldn’t drink more than two glasses of wine.
– Tomorrow: Work, then 2nd job work. And I will have to do a damn good job because I haven’t done a good job for awhile. And I need to feel good about it in order to turn in my invoice.
– Thursday: Work. Hanging out with Katie after work because I haven’t seen her in a minute. Hopefully we’ll just hang out at my home or maybe go for a walk or something non-drinking.
– Friday: Work. Possibly going to my mom’s to do laundry because I don’t really want to tell you how long it’s been since I’ve done a proper laundry trip. I’ve been washing my ‘delicates’ by hand. Because as long as I have underwear, I can pretty much stretch my wardrobe over several weeks. But my options are becoming limited. And Febreze only goes so far. =P
– Saturday: Cleaning/2nd job. My god I work a lot. Then hopefully nothing.
– Sunday: Nothing. And I really, really, really want it to stay that way.
Still looking for suggestions on how to approach ending things with Will. I am going to give it one more date, but if I’m not feeling it during that date I will end it by the time it’s over. Just don’t know how. Words, please.
Haha, I don’t think you want my advice =P.
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B, the will thing is tough. I can relate. I remember feeling similar with Paul, Nick, and Jason. The dread of the realization that…once again…I just wasn’t “feeling” it. I felt like such a crazy, flighty, fickle girl. I wondered what people thought of me and I felt like such a shithead. Was I just too selfish to ever be with anyone? Anyways, it brings up questions that you have to wrestle
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with inside yourself. And you’ll do that in time. fact is, right now you know that you don’t want to be with Will. And that is ok. I just want you to know that is OK. even though you already know that yourself, sometimes it’s nice to have someone else reaffirm. Also, the way breaking up with him again may make you look to others has no bearing on it being the right thing for you and for him
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OK! that’s my speech. 😀 xoxo <3
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Eek, haven’t broken up with anyone in a long time…Just be honest though. Tell him you just don’t see it working out in the long run and it’s better to just cut things off now rather than later. I used the “let’s stay friends” line numerous times, and I’m actually still friends with some of the guys I dated 10 years ago.
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RYN: Haha, ok. Here goes. I think you should give it another date and if you’re still not feeling it, just say it doesn’t seem like it’s working out. You’re different people than you were before and neither of you should try to hold on to that and try to make it work just because it worked for a long time before. So, I say just hit it head on if it’s still not going well.
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I’m always a big fan of honesty, even if you have to sugar coat it a little. I would just explain that you were really excited to start things over with him. You missed him, even thought he was the one that got away. Explain that you admire so many things about him as a person. But the more time you spend together, the more you realize that people break up for a reason. And even if you could take
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a magic wand and simply erase all of your issues, the fact of the matter is that it can’t be done. Sometimes love isn’t enough to hold people together, and losing someone as amazing as Will was the hard way you were forced to learn that lesson. Explain that you’re sorry for wanting to sever ties once again, but that your desire to renew your relationship was undeniable, and you wouldn’t have been
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able to go on without at least giving it one more try to see if things could be salvaged. There ya go! lol And I will personally be very sad when NoJoMo is over because you are my favoritist of favorites and I will be sad not having good reading material to look forward to every day!!! 🙂
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“It’s been too long. Too much has happened. I’m sorry I don’t feel that way and I’m sorry if I led you on.” Just be honest. There’s no speech to rehearse. Just tell him what’s up.
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