wait for it ——- !!!

i think im actually going to have a fun weekend for once in my life.

tomorrow evening im going to ellens graduation, and then after that im going over to ruths for her 16th bday (WHY the hell is everyone so much older than me???) and im staying the night there, and then in the morning ive got to go over to the pool for the mock meet, wich starts at 9, and then right after the mock meet, im going to astroworld with amanda and everyone else for her bday, then im staying saturday night at amanda’s, and then on sunday im going with lee to go get tickets for the warp tour, and after we get em were going to go see a movie!

it seems too good to be true, because seriously for once in my life im going to be spending the whole weekend with my friends. i have NEVER done this before..its almost scary. i spend 99% of my life alone, on my computer, with no social interaction with anyone. and now here i am, being invited everywhere by everyone..

so yea im really happy right now, which is very odd because just yesterday i was having those thoughts again…which isnt good. im in pain right now because i cut ALOT this past week (which i am regretting at this moment because im going to be wearing a swim suit half the weekend)

im also in pain because im sick

and because i got high on a cupcake i made and the icing was made out of PURE SUGAR! i had eaten two of em in advisory before 2nd period, and when i got to 2nd period, i was running and doing ballet and jumping all over the locker room, and i tripped over a bench and landed on the other side on my knees..so my knees are all bruised up now, which im also regretting.

oh yes..and my arm hurts (the part i didnt manage to slice away) because i whacked the corner of my dresser with it, and it hurts like hell too because it has a huge bruise on it.

ooo i just forgot! frank has to take care of an electronic baby! hehe, hes like “its not fair! i have to feed it and change its diaper and it even cries and wakes up in the middle of the night!” my reply was “how is that not fair? thats so cute ive always wanted to do that!! ”

  <—– describes what he thought about my reply.

so now im going to go get me a drink and go look at franks new baby.