Oh how I love my lovely made-up world I live in

I finally had a normal weekend (well, as normal as normal gets). I FINALLY got to see Trey and had the best time in a long time with frank. So yea I was happy today, because everything is going so well. Besides my mom and all the screaming and fighting (which ive learned to tolerate and not care about), theres nothing about my life I really hate right now. Im actually happy for once. Its a bit scary to tell the truth…I guess Im just not used to not being filled with angry depressing thoughts for this long. If there is a god out there, I thank him. And Frank. Yes, definetly Frank.

Anyway, Im not going to eat anything tomorrow.  Why? Well, Ill admit, the reason is very very stupid. So Im not going to tell you. It has nothing to do with me wanting to lose weight or anything. I love food too much to do that. Its just got something to do with my fucked up way of thinking, which is too complicated for me to explain (Trust me, I just tried).

Besides all that, one of the many good things that has happened is that I now get to babysit micheal’s friend and his little brother after school everyday for 50$ dollars a week. Thats 200$ a month. Sure…In the real world, that would be my electricity bill. But im 15. And im not allowed to live in the real world. So 200$ to me is like a million.

Oh how i love this…getting paid to sit on my butt like ive been doing the last 5 years of my life, watching tv and playing the computer. Only now my brother will be too occupied with his friends to annoy me. And theyre good, sweet well-behaved kids too. I dont even have to worry about them putting my cat in the fridge or trying to break each others necks (STUPID PSYCHO LITTLE GIRL…..*shudders*)

Well its midnight…and i think my dad just woke up from my typing, so yea im going to go now.