my nose…it burns!! =(

Ive get a mountain of tissues next to my desk, and my nose is raw now.

Its 2 am and I cannot go to sleep for the life of me. I guess its because ive been sleeping all day. I feel like complete shit right now. Not as bad as I did yesterday though. For 3 whole weeks, ive been sick, off and on. Ill get sick, and in a few days my mom will schedule me a doctor appointment, but then im already better by time im supposed to go. A day later, I get sick again. And it keeps getting gradually worse.

This 3rd round of sickness though, we planned ahead, and scheduled an appointment as soon as it started again, instead of waiting till I was already half dead.  Muahaha! You stupid diseases will never defeat me!

Two nights ago is when it got really bad. I woke up in the morning yesterday and could hardly even move. I had like….a 102 or 103 fever. Hasn’t been that high since I was what….7? But I went to the doctor yesterday. I have so much crap wrong with me. Ive got to take 3 or 4 different kinds of pills, AND I have to use a freaken inhaler.

I dont like it. Its evil. It shuts on my fingertips and clicks at me. I dont have to use it for asthma, its something wrong with my lungs. The airway thing is shrinking, and because ive been sick so long ive also got a bad sinus infection, and they think at one point i mighta had the flu.

Its weird, I havent been sick for years, and then when I finally get sick I almost die. Sorta. At least now I know why I couldnt swim. I had been sitting out for two weeks, so when I finally swam, I was going sooooo slow. I thought I was just outta shape. Because the coach was making us do 100’s, and we had to get faster each time. My normall time is around 1:05 – 1:06, and I could NOT go under 1:40 no matter how hard I tried. He was mad at me because he thought I wasnt trying hard enough

So now when I get back to school Im gonna tell him he almost killed me by making me swim. Everyone else was already out excpet a few slow people, and he told us if we made it to 1:40, we could get out.

Something I realized…the older I get, the crappier presents I get. I dont mean to sound selfish or anything…but yesterday at my grandma’s I see my two little cousins open toys that even I would enjoy playing with (yes, yes, I know, im stupid), and I get mary kate and ashley perfume and body spray

Of course I smiled, gave my grandparents a hug and said thank you. The 30$ gift card to best buy definetly made up for it though .

And hey, you never know, maybe one day Ill smell bad and ill have to resort to mary kate and ashley

The only other thing I dont like, especially on my dads side, when the one person that draws my name for my main present of the year either A. Forgets to give me something B. Stops by the dollar store before they arrive at my aunts C. Gets me a purse D. Gets me make up or E. gets me earrings, when I dont have my ears pierced, never have, and never will

But of course, its the thought that counts. Unless letter A. or B. happens. Then you’re just stupid. And most of my family is.

I need to call Pat today. Me and him and kirsten went to the mall on saturday to go buy christmas presents for people, and to watch a movie. We didnt have time for the movie though, so we just walked around through the shops, where we found Stalker, and Stephen.

***cries*** My face is burning and i just took my temperature and its 102.4  Neeed…..one of my…..300000 pills i have to take…..

Anyway — Especially once stephen got there, It was so much fun. Ive never EVER been to the mall before with just friends, and neither had any of them, because we have no lives. Kirsten kept taking pictures of random people . And the jewelry people were looking at us funny while we were sitting on a bench resting. All 4 of us were squished on there, and I dont remember why but we were all rocking back and forth. Kirsten started taking pictures of them to, to make them go away. Ha. Good times…

We were gonna call Jesse to see if he wanted to come, but that woulda been awkward since Pat knows that Jesse likes me now. . At least I think he does…he keeps writing me these notes, but I cant tell if he’s joking or not because, cmon, its Jesse we’re talking about. Not only does he say things in the notes about my pat and other stuff, but at the last lunch we had he gave me a piece of paper with his phone number and FUCK YOU PAT at the bottom. Kirsten and I arent sure if he was talking about his Patrick, or my patrick. Because his patrick was sitting right next to him when he wrote it.

So yea, Im confused.

One day last week the lights went out a minute after everyone got out of the lunch room. Now, being in a room stuffed with over a thousand people, in pitch black darkness , HAD to have been horrifying. What was more horrifying was that me and jesse and my other people had left the lunchroom before the bell rang, so we were ahead of everyone. The way me and Jesse usually go to 8th period, was blocked by a bunch of stupid people not wanting to go outside and get their hair wet. I dont blame them too much though, because it was raining pretty hard, and the roof covering thing had a waterfall blocking the covered pathway.

So, we took a detour down a nearly empty hall way. Thats when the lights went out. My god….being in the dark…with jesse…with peope screaming their heads off in the background…*shudders*

When they went off, I screamed 😀 and almost grabbed onto is arm . it was just a reaction I guess. His was laughing his head off because I had screamed. He said he had to feel around in the dark to find me, and he grabbed my hand and practically pulled me down the hall towards end, towards the light of the doors. 😀

It felt like a life or death situation. Was fun though. We ran through the rain to the annex, and when we got there the emergency hallway lights had turned on. When we got to our classrooms though, they turned off again.

Jesse wanted to go to the back of the classroom, strip, and see if anyone would notice XD

Sadly…the lights came on in 30 minutes, and we still had to take our language final. I got a 94 on mine

*is proud*

And now…im going to go find the tylenol, because I am dieing and my fever is STILL going up. Its 102.6 now. =(