Kill the monotony

Wow, its been nearly a month since Ive been on here, maybe even longer.

I dunno why. I guess I just dont have all the time i used to have. I have to babysit after school everyday, so by time I get home its 7 and i play some games for a few hours if I dont got a crap load of homework, then I go to bed. Its pretty boring. Everything these days is boring. Thats the only word I can think of, because I’m neither happy or sad. For the last few months Ive been pretty unemotional. I feel as if Im just there, just existing. Days creep by and its always the same old thing. At least I have Jesse to break up the monotony. It’ll be a sad day when he’s gone…

I dyed my hair again. It’s now a dark brown, nearly black. It’s pretty against my skin…

My skin is a strange color. It’s a weird shade of white. It’s not white, because white people have pink tinges to them, and I have no pink in my skin whatsoever. My face only turns red if Im sunburned, and even then it quickly turns into a tan. I’m very pale. Maybe Im just a very very very light brown. I’m not sure. Oh, well my makeup matches my skin and its "Ivory" colored, so I’m Ivory. Whatever the heck that is…

We just got back from Colorado yesterday. It was fun I guess, though Pat’s family went too and he was always… there. He’s "smothering" me, as Samantha says it. I had to stay with him the entire time, and wait for him while he struggled to get down the mountain. That’s what really annoyed me, because I wanted to go off by myself and do my own thing. I’m getting alot better at snowboarding. I can grind on the rails and jump off small ramps and such.

School starts up again tomorrow. I miss Jesse. And Scott was supposed to get a haircut, so Im looking forward to seeing that, because it will be really scary. His hair is almost as long as mine, and I cannot picture him with short hair. It’s gonna be interesting.

Well, im really just typing in this to make sure it doesnt get erased. I should go check up on people too. Make sure everyones okay and stuff…