Its so surreal…

My foot keeps getting worse and worse every day. I had a…puddle injury ealier this week :p I slipped in a puddle…and scratched up my leg and foot, and a particularly nasty cut on my foot got infected. Gross, I know. Its like….twice the size of my other foot because its swollen. My mom actually went out and bought me crutches :O
She wanted me to stay home tomorrow, but I refused, because of Z. No doubt everyone will be talking about him. Tomorrow will be a sad, sad day…

It doesn’t seem real, at all. Especially since the news got involved. Ive always loved reading news articles on yahoo and msn. You always hear and read things about teenagers dieing and such…but you don’t really care. It seems like just another report or story. Because I know people out there see the ones about Z and think "well thats interesting." But they don’t realize that he is a real person, with a real family and real friends who are out there crying and greiving and living through hell…

I read something today…about a teenager from florida that died in israel. Normally I’d think nothing of it — people always die, and if you’re in the middle east,  well, it was a good run. But this time, I tried putting myself in his shoes…in his friends shoes…how sad must his friends be…his family…everyone he knew. He wasn’t just some "kid who died in israel", to them he was a real person, he went grocery shopping, he hid his friends backpacks behind chairs, he brushed his teeth at night and watched family guy. And now he’s dead. Gone. Completely wiped from this earth and from existence. God doesn’t exist — no one will ever see him again. We will forget about him, but everyone who knew him won’t.

No one who knew Z will forget him. No one. Everyone who watches the news will, but we who spent our summers at the pool with him, we who complained about final exams with him, we who played in his football games and sat with him at lunch and laughed at mr. monk with him….we will NEVER forget him.

There really is no point to the entry. It was just something I’ve been thinking about. Ever since I saw that deer with its newborn baby dead on the side of the road…watching the traffic drive by…no one cared to move it even….
Its an example of how uncaring our society has become. We hear of war, death, violence…so much in fact, that we just don’t care anymore. It’s become the normal thing.

I don’t want to go to school tomorrow, but at the same time I know I have to. Peole are going to need me tomorrow…

it doesnt seem real….
and he didnt even get bit….the stupid news people don’t know what theyre talking about…it spit on him..which is even more crazy..