I suck at making entry titles

And as a matter of fact, I suck at making entiries.

Anyway, I thought i’d log into this thing to make sure it doesn’t get deleted or anything. I know how much I hate losing stuff, especially stuff that I write, no matter how crappy or wierd or random it is. I was in the slow process of typing my daydream story, and when the hard drive I had it on crashed last year I think I actually cried. But maybe I didnt, because I know all the information is still recoverable and when/if I ever get a job my first 120$ I make is going towards getting it all back. Even if I can’t get it back, I’ve still got a majority of the spoken parts of my stories written in about 6 full spiral journal things. I only handwrite the spoken parts; if I tried to write all the details of everything my hand would fall off and my entire room would be filled with spiral journal things.

The details were all typed, and even with over 100 pages of 12 sized font, I think I’d only gone through half a spiral script. And there’s many more spiral scripts where that came from, because many parts of the story are still in my head, and many new parts are constantly being formed during math class and boring bus rides home from school, always being changed and influenced by things I read or watch or see. Over the last 6 years or so it has become a very complex storyline I think. And I love it. But I have vowed to never speak a word of it. Maybe if I ever finish the entire thing I’ll show it to one person who I think will appreciate it. But I probably won’t finish it — it never seems to end, because it grows as I grow.

I’ve always thought of at least stopping it somewhere, so I could maybe type it to that point and put it on something like fictionpress.com. Put it somewhere where I can share it and have it be seen without anyone I know knowing it was me who wrote it. I was in the slow and steady process of that, before my hard drive crashed. It was hard to find time to type it, since my computer is in the living room for all to see, and I definetly didn’t want anyone to see the things I was typing – not that I was writing anything horrible or anything. It’s just that I am very…writing-conscious. That, and it’s a tad bit rated R. Okay…it’s more than a tad bit rated R But still….thats precisicly the reason why I would never show it to anyone I know. They’d think the main character was created to resemble me, and I’d be shoved into a psycho ward by my parents.

One day, I want to finish it and I want it to be read by an anonymous person, and I want them to tell me what they thought it about it. It wasn’t created to be made into a story to be read by people, it was just created to help me survive through long boring history lectures and car rides to colorado. But, I would like to know if it makes a good story anyway. One day.