humans are sad creatures…

why? because i found out where johnnys been all this time.

he was in the hospital, because he tried to kill himself, and nearly succeeded. he said he took alot of pills and cut his arm real bad. he cut the nerves, and he said he might not be able to use his left arm again. stupid idiot.

and while he was on the phone telling me this, i was talking to travis online. and he was telling me that he wanted to kill himself, and why.

and this is coming after that huge ordeal with trey and why hes been gone for 6 months. and also, frank was in a very bad mood these last few days.

why the hell is everyone reaching out to me??? i cant help them with this crap! i dont know how to help them. i dont even know how to help myself.

ugh…