evil flying things are…well, evil.

Houston is being overrun by mesquitos. You just open the front door an inch and 10-20 mesquitos will come flying in. Walking outside for even 30 seconds is hell. I tried counting how many mesquito bites I have…And I lost count at 24

Ugh…I have to read the Illiad this weekend. The ENTIRE book. I was supposed to be finished with it this week, and I wasnt, at all, and we had a quiz. I actually think I did pretty well though, because we were able to use our books. I dont understand why people think Open Book quizzes are hard…Youve got the answers right in front of you, no thinking needed.

Pats been getting alot more comfortable around me, I can tell. Its kind of hard to explain. But I love it. He called me last night, twice. We were talking about lots of random stuff, like…Naked people falling from the sky. Ha. Crazy, I know. But that’s Pat for ya. Today he told me I smelled pretty :P. I thought that was kinda odd…since I had just gotten back from swim practice. I dunno…Maybe he just likes the smell of chlorine? O.o

Or maybe it was the shampoo. Weird.

Anyway…Dillan came home with me after school. Just for a few minutes though because I was paranoid my mom would come home. If she found him there…. Id be dead.

He broke up with his girlfriend today, because he noticed she’s been acting weird lately and then his friend told him that she was cheating on him. So, he confronted her about it. And it was true. And yea…I feel sorry for him. I always knew she was a slut. And I told him that. I didn’t tell him what Kevin told me though, because 1. I dont want kevin to die, and 2. I didn’t want to make matters worse

All I know is, youve really either got to be slutty or desprate to want Kevin. Cruel, I know, but the truth hurts.

Speaking of truth…I wonder what Anna’s gonna do, now that she knows Pat is officially scared of her. At least I think she knows. Its not that hard to tell. She’s also dissapointed because he keeps skipping theatre practice. Pat’s not the guy for her. Really. When the time comes, she’ll tell me she doesn’t like him anymore, and she’ll hate herself because she failed yet again. And then I’ll comfort her by telling her he wasn’t her type, and tell her why, and that she’d be much better off with someone more like her, that she can relate to better. Ill also tell her that eventually, she WILL find someone, because she’s such a great person (no lie) and highschool relationships never last anyway, because the guys our age (and most girls) are still immature idiots.

What else?

Oh yea, Kirsten. Wow. No one has really ever asked me for advice, or confided in me with their problems. Anna does, everyonce in a while, when she is incredibly angry at someone. But the other day, outta the blue, Kirsten started talking about religion, and that she was confused about whether she was a christian or not, and didnt know what to do. She wanted to ask rachel, but decided to ask me first instead. I listened to what she had to say and told her I probably wasnt the person to ask, and that Rachel would be better. 

For one, I suck at helping people. I also told her that I wasn’t christian. She didn’t know that. Rachel is one of those really faithful people, that go to church everyday and stuff. So we both are on opposite ends of it all. I told her Rachel would bring her towards God, and I would probably bring her away. Kirsten says that Rachel will tell her its the devil confusing her, and she’s afraid that its true, and that everytime she starts thinking "god can’t really be real, can he?" she starts freaking out that she’s going to go to hell.

I dont know if what I believe is right or wrong, so Im not going to try to convice people it is. I respect other people’s beliefs, and obviously, if she’s scared of god, she’s still christian. So I said that, and then explained my view on it, and what I did and thought of when I was in her situation.  I told her to talk to Rachel still, to get both our views on it, then decide what she wants to do.

I told her that I was agnostic, and told her to look it up. Today she told me that it describes her perfectly, and decided thats probably what she’s gonna go for. She hasnt talked to Rachel yet because she’s staying with her for the rest of the week while her family is in washington. She says Rachel will probably freak out, tell her brothers, and her parents, and theyd drag Kirsten down to the living room and try to excersize her.

Scary.

 

 

 

 

 

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October 6, 2005

I went through the exact same thing as this Kristen girl did. I ended up going for the agnostic side and I’m pretty much comfortable with myself spiritually. Houston, eh? I’m in El Paso right now.

October 6, 2005

RYN That’s exactly the response I hoped for when I wrote it. Yeah, dreams suck, but I loved that one when I was in it.

October 10, 2005

I hate mosquitos! I totally understand your pain on that one! It’s like “where the hell do the all come from?” …one of those things…and if you inhale deeply at night when your talking you may eat a mosquito. Gross. take care! =) RYN: Yea, I read that note above urs and thought the same. Hehe. Some ppl r so funny! =)