fuck you guy

i feel like garbage. thats all i really want to write.. I am so upset. Mitch ignored me all night. and i freaked out. i have no trust with him. so i went to his house. 6 am. I busted in the door and there he sat, all pilled out with his friend doug and coworker Katy. him and katy where sitting pretty close. I scared the fuck out of both or them. I’m so fucking angry. He lied to me about who he was with. He never tells me about the girl he chills with. All I think about is Ashely his last coworker girlfriend. That was really painful. We are so fucked. I don’t want him to lie to me. He always feels the need to lie. It must be revenge. I really am terrible girlfriend material.

it’s really confusing because I can’t tell if he likes this katy girl or she really is just a friend. i mean he feels the need to lie to me everytime they go to the club. maybe because im a pshyco bitch when it comes to other girls. but should they really being going to the club every friday popping E? and sitting very close together at 6 am. and purposly ignoring and lieing to me about it? that doesnt sound like something you should be doing without your girlfriend present. which is what i thought i was. but obviously i’m just some bimbo who can be ignored all night and lied to.

all he does now is go to stupid dubstep concerts with dan and doug and his secret lover katy and tell me i cant go. "becausehisgirlfriendsarescaredofme" and i cant EVEN go because i work every FUCKING WEEKEND. it solved his problem. i really really don’t know what to do. i am so sick of being hurt. i wish things weren’t so fucked up. i love him but I don’t think we can fix our problems. i’m so done trying. I do not constantly want to be lied to.

i got boys nipping my ankles!! what the fuck do i need this for? I can do so much better. I honestly don’t even want to date. I would love to be single and fabulous. I work in a fucking nightclub for fuck sakes. I could be having the time of my life 😉

he bought me a $300 home theater set last night at walmart. and then i dumped him the next day.

i can laugh at that because i’m still pretty upset.

i don’t think i’m going to sleep anytime soon. i havent ate since 8 last night. maybe i will put together this sound system and then i can drowned my self in sound tomorrow.

im glad i bought 3 boxes of belgian chocolate shells last night. an extra 5 pounds here i come. jking i’m not fat.