05/21/2012

My weekend was terrible. I’ve been fighting with mitch since saturday. He’s been sleeping on the couch.

It feels like he doesn’t want to spend time with me. We never go on dates or leave the house together. Getting him to go to safeway with me is impossible. He’s lazy as fuck. He makes me feel like its me…. He would rather spend 8 hours at the casino than go to a movie with me. It bothers me a lot. I’m a very needy person. 
 

I’ve been sitting in the bedroom all weekend with the laptop. Staying far away from him. I’m feeling extremely lonely. I kinda cant wait to go back to work.
 

So my girlfriend sold me her shamabalah ticket. I’m kinda upset that she isnt going anymore. I was actually supposed to go with her. Now I have no one to go with. So I told Mitch about the extra ticket. He didnt know I had a ticket. Ive had my ticket since they were released, with full intentions of not going with him. I didnt even want to really tell him about the second ticket. But who would I go with now? So I told him the truth about the first ticket. He was a little pissed since I had planned on going without him. I honestly didnt think we would be together anyway at that point. He said he didnt really want to go with me anyway… but I told him to book the time off work. I don’t want him to go.. i dont think it would be fun. I dont see us getting along while there. He has the time booked off work, but I doubt hes gonna go with me. I would really like to take Josef. He’s a good buddy of mine and hes a blast. I dont have a way of getting there really… I dont have a tent either. I should probably get that figured out. The music festival is in August.

Yoji my kitty has been laying with me all day. He’s so cute. He doesnt leave my side. He follows me to the bathroom, to the laundry room, to the fridge. He used to be super clingy when he was a little kitty he hasnt grown out of it much. I love it though. I remember he would climb into my house robe and wrap himself around my back. He would be held up by the rope. He was just a little guy at that time. But he still likes to be in my clothes and under the covers.

Tomorrow is gonna suck.. I’m gonna have a lot of prep to do. And I gotta go to the gym after work. I HAVE TOO. I havent been in 2 weeks.