His own fault.

I just can’t get it out of my head..
How utterly selfish and ridiculous he is.  I can’t understand how i can’t make him see that his children are important  MUCH more important that a girl 1/2 his age that he met less than a couple months ago!!!
UGH!

I just hate that he can’t see that.  What the hell is wrong with him?! 

I’m just stressed about it.  I hate having no control this situation with my girls. well my control extends to whether or not he can see them at all.  I have to ASK him to see them most of the time.. so i guess i can just stop asking and he would probably fade away.. i’m thinking that’s better than him just popping in and out of their lives whenever he wants to..

It is just so unfair to the girls..

Selfish Prick!

So i’ve decided that if he can’t be a real father to them, at least he can support them.  I’m starting a document that has ALL of their expenses on it that he is supposed to pay 45% of, but isn’t.  I cannot wait to take him to court and drop on him EVERY. SINGLE. DIME. he owes me. 

If he was being a true father, i would overlook some things just to help him out.  But since he isn’t, i think he’s just getting a little piece of what he deserves. 

ok i’m done with that .. i think..

In other news, Paige is sick.  She has been running a fever, getting as high as 103, for about 4 days!  This morning she was fine.. then we got a call that she had a 103 fever and was crying for me.  So  i left work and took her to the doctor..

the diagnosis.. a viral infection.. nothing we can do but ride it out.. lovely.. at least the fever, and being tired and incredibly whiney are her only symptons.

The copay for today was $20, of which he owes me $9, see already finding petty things that will add up to a good sum.. hey he is responsible for it..

Oh I found something very interesting in Maya’s backpack today.. when i emptied her folder I found an adorable picture that she made of her and chuck going down the waterslide on the double tube together at the water park.  There was also an "i love you" book.  It’s pages included a title paige, "I love you Mom" page, "I love you Chuck" page, and an "i love you Paige" page.. where was Dad?  no where to be found. 

His own fault.