Anger!

Oh my God! I am so angry.  Not about anything now, but residual anger.  Anger that lies under the surface and just lingers.. and then one day … BAM!!!

I am so angry with Dave.  I just am.  How DARE he do this to his family!!!! How dare he LIE to ME and the KIDS for YEARS!! How DARE he let me build what i thought was a stable marriage, family and partnership and then let it blow up in my face!!!!! oh my gosh i’m so mad.I can’t handle it.. i’m furious!!

How can he call himself a father and only see these children for 2 hours a week if he’s lucky?@?!?!?!?  alsdkfasldfkjf;kljkasjdfklj  It’s so un-fasldfk-ing fair that it is ALL on me.  The care, the finances, the emotional well-being, the school things, the extracurricular things, the housework.. it is ALL on me!!!  I did NOT sign up for THIS!!!

I can’t believe i’m this fucking angry but i am.  and no, he didn’t do anything.  it stems from ME having to drive the girls to and from to see him.  I’m tired. i have school work to do, I have to get the girls stuff ready for tomorrow, i have too much fucking stuff to do because it is ALL ON ME… why??? BECAUSE OF HIM AND HIS LIES!!  

I am one angry chick!

oh and yes, charles is here, but they are not his kids.  i like to pretend they are, he seems to be pulling me out of that little fantasy piece  by piece,and i’m not sure how i feel about that either.

but right now my rage, my utter infuriation.. yes, that is all reserved for the EX-husband, and truthfully EX-father, in this fairy tale.