Orange County

Ok so, more on the matters at hand-

I’ve looked into this grad school thing. The idea behind being a PA vs a Dr. is that you go to school for 2 years and a 3rd in rotations, vs all that schooling and then 4 years in rotations as a Dr. So major appeal is that. It’s cheaper, it gets me a good income, it gets me where I want to be helping people, and it gets me the flexibility I would like to have should I start a family. To be honest, the biggest factor was my biological clock. I might be single and only 22.5 today, but tomorrow I could meet my dream man who wants to whisk me away to a Navel base in Japan next week, and I can’t do any of those things while in grad school. I could hold out 2-3 years, but definitely not 8 if you get my drift. I mean, I’ll talk to an advisor and maybe they’ll say hey…. dumbass, become a Dr. and he’ll change my mind completely. But right now, this just FITS into all my life’s goals.

I might be going to Cali next month again for a last hurrah in the summer months. The people I’m staying with are thinking about renting a beach house and it’d just be so nice to recharge my batteries one more time at the ocean. I feel like I do that here, with my mountains, but this summer, my summer by the sea, I’ve learned so much and done so many things, and I feel so calm and clear-headed while sitting in the sand, day or night, high or low tide, west or east coast. It’d be amazing to feel that there, again, before I embark on what could be a CRAZY semester.

I had my meeting with advising in the morning and I’m all over the place. I’m giggles and grins and paperwork and AHHHH. It just feels great. I’ve never been to this part of campus and it’s in DOWNTOWN DENVER so it’s scary and parking is shitty and blah blah blah but I’ll make it work because I have to! It’s at 9:30 so I wanna leave at like, 8:30 in case of traffic and no parking, etc. I’ll probably get there to be met by a guy in a polo, flip flops, and a golf shirt, but it’s ok because I’m so excited for my future I’m agonizing over what to wear and will inevitably dress up!

I have a whole lot to say about my Jewish boy (I hate typing out Jewish, but I know Jew can be offensive and yada yada so…) but I’m still at work, leaving for an hour or two before hitting another job, so I wanna wait till I carve out more time for that explanation.

What else can I say? I’m working my ass off to finish this semester well, which is a bit difficult with working so much. It’s just hard to get my head in the right place. I decided not to tell my friend, feel her out and see if HE said anything…and just go from there. There’s a ladies night type thing at this bar down the street I might go to with the girls tomorrow night if I don’t work too late and I’m excited about that for SURE. Last time we went (2 weeks ago) I ended up severely kissing (to the point where my friends would distract me, we’d leave, I’d run into him again some other place while they had their backs turned ordering another round or something and I’d be running my fingertips through his hair and everything kissing!) this guy named Jamal whose been texting me on and off ever since. Eh. Hopefully the next time I see him isn’t being THERE again, lol.

I changed my diary layout a bit and still don’t love it. I added a different picture because that one’s about…30 lbs lighter and on a boat in Florida, and who doesn’t love that?! I’d love a picture background but can’t figure it out really. I love when you take a picture of you in the pool, and the blue with the lines…I think it’s so beautiful, lol. I’d love that, and this background reminded me of it but it’s obnoxious and I’d imagine a bit harder to read on. Le sigh. If only I had more time.knowledge to devote to OD layout 🙁