Woke up on a lighter ❤️ n almost fucked up

woke up n checked my text n he said this…

JUST TELL ME SOMETHING…WE ALL KNOW UR FUCKING SOMEONE ON THE UNDER N I HOPE U DIDN’T FUCK MY MONEY OFF. 

I read…re-read…n re-re-read his text as I often do n that’s why I usually delete his texts because I obsess off words. Words mean something to me. I feel that…if u really didn’t feel like that deep inside then u wouldn’t fix ur lips to say it. So stand on them words. So as I get triggered by the utter bullshit coming from his thoughts…I start tick tacking click clacking on my text…

I don’t have to (HOLD UP…PAUSE)….

I WAS ABOUT TO TEXT…I DONT HAVE TO EXPLAIN SHIT TO U…and realized that is exactly what he wants. He wants a response because that’s all the explanation he needs….my response. A response is an explanation of…she is still responding so I still got a chance…..NOPE! 

NO RESPONSE IS A LOUD N CLEAR GO FUCK URSELF N EAT THAT SILENCE UP LIKE RAT POISON N LET IT SINK IN THAT…U LOST!