Jenniferobot

I used to hate you Jen.
“You did not.”
I did. I used to hate you.
“Why?!? … was it because I’m skinny? It was because I’m skinny wasn’t it?”
Haha. Yeahhh…
“…it’s always because I’m skinny.”
No, I don’t even remember why I hated you. I just did.
“Yeah…I hate people sometimes too…but it’s usually the skinny thing.”

I would never admit to it, but it probably was the skinny thing.
Except now I know she weighs more than I do. I know that we wear the same size jeans. And I know her boobs aren’t bigger than mine.
Nothing to be jealous of, right?
Except I still am. Jealous. Because I can’t wrap my mind around the reality that I am as thin as she is.
I’m not. I’m not I’m not I’m not. I can’t be. I’m not.