ED

The highlight of my day is putting on a pair of jeans and having them literally fall off.

The problem is, when I look at myself, all I see is fat, and it makes me want to scream and cry. Because it never changes. No matter how loose my clothes are, I still see the same image in the mirror.
It’s impossible, I know, but it’s true; I’m not just saying it – I honestly can not see a bit of difference in my body when I look in the mirror. And I spend a lot of time looking in the mirror.
It’s not fair.
And it’s so hard to believe that what I’m seeing isn’t real, because I’m fucking SEEING IT.