Random thoughts…3 am thoughts at that

Why am I working third shift when my body just doesn’t respond to sleep very well…Well with the fact that I hate dealing with people it works really well for me….don’t get me wrong I am extremely good with people…I am very much a people person and I have the charisma and the personality to charm my way into anyone’s heart…People fall in love with me easily…I just have a very toxic mindset so I think everyone hates me and they are afraid to tell me. Also there is this guy….A guy who I feel is completely out of my league…I say this because he is actually a good guy…You see I don’t typically go for the good guys…I like red flags…However the flags are really not that red right? The red flags could always be redder? those are the lies I tell myself to justify why its okay to like them…But Kyle….he has not shown any…and its scary…this man speaks positive to me and he never says anything negative…the man actually communicates with me…if he is busy he tells me…he makes an effort to communicate with me everyday even if its a single 10 minute conversation…which tbh is more effort then most men I date have ever put in…Yeah I think i have stated that my dating history isint the greatest…I need to log off so I can get back to work..My lunch break is almost over….I don’t have the energy for 4 more hours…