Sick !

Ok a little history….

Last week (Before my midweek meetup with Luke and my drunken night in) I found a  lump, actually I found 2 but in different places on my body. I won’t give more details but fairly private.

I told Luke and 3 other people about these lumps and that i was quite scared about them.  My appointment with the doctor was last night and despite these people knowing this and that i was apprehensive about it not one (including Luke) asked me if i was ok or how I was feeling. Luke ventured a "how are you" about an hour after the appointment but that was it

I felt very isolated, let down, betrayed and a little angry.  Luke soon realized something was up but I just told him I was fine and that I was going to be a little quiet. I figure he gets a free pass on this one as i do love him but inside I was a little let down so rather than create some drama via text’s I left him alone and reassured him i was fine. 

Today I am fine but this weekend I will tell Luke how I felt. I think he already knows…  I may call him tonight and explain why I kinda left him to it last night…  he wanted to call but as he was part of the reason I wanted to be alone I told him I was going to bed early. I didn’t

Hugz

Bearcub