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So i got to work today to be greeted by a message by my roommate (also my ex)

He’s struggling with me and Luke, even though we’ve been split up for years he still has feelings for me and needs time to work through it. He knew this day was going to come and it’s been 5+ year so I think it’s long enough. there really isn’t much i can do. i’ll be as sensative as i can

Luke has been quiet today..  whilst he’s at work I understand but he was quiet all evening and when asked what he was doing he said he’d just sat in front of the tv all night surfing the net…

I’ll be honest, and say this kinda pissed me off. I love the guy and want to talk to him as much as possible but he seems the complete opposite. He tells me I’m on his mind a lot but why doesn’t he just message me ! He doesn’t seem to want to talk..  we normally speak on the phone just before bed every night and I’ll be honest, I told him I was walking the dog and getting an early night cos I just didn’t want to talk to him tonight..    I just have to get used to the fact that we’re just not alike. It annoys me mostly cos I’ve been out with guys from the USA and had more contact with them factoring in a time zone change and distance ! It’s frustrating 🙁

I know he cares and I know he loves me but it still feels like I care more….  when you love someone you want t be with them all the time, you want to have contact with them all the time..  doesn’t feel that way with Luke. It’ll take some getting used to

hugz to all

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