May the Luke be with you

The weekend with Luke went well..

He came bearing card and chocolates…  can’t ask for more than that right

We had a nice meal and talked about stuff…. future stuff but not too heavy

However…..

It kinda went a little pear shaped when i told him that i thought I was falling for him…  cos I am, at last !

I couldn’t find the right moment to say it so I texted it to him whilst he was on his way home..  (yeah in hindsight was a bad idea)…

Conversation went very weird..  A day later he said to me that it was him being a little weird and that i couldn’t have understood his weird emotions through the messages alone but as yet he hasn’t fully explained. So I’m not sure if he feels totally the same and is scared to admit to himself that he does or he just isn’t there yet which I find strange as we’ve pretty much lived in each others pockets for the last 7 weekends and again this weekend.

He just texted me to say he missed his tube stop this morning cos he was thinking about us (good things). That’s a good sign right ? 

I think i need to chill about all of this and let it run it’s course. Normally i’d be fine but because of his shyness and his relatively newness to a serious relationship he’s holding back..  I think it’s him holding back that’s making me nervous and he’s so new to this he doesn’t want to scare me away or scare himself !

I guess we’ll see…

Free hugz to all

Bearcub