Marsha Mallows – A tale of 2 cities !

So the weekend came and went – AGAIN !!

They go so quick these days… 

I’m now living in my last week as a 38 Year old..  Which means come this friday (at 8:45pm according to my mum) I’ll be 39, which mean I’m on the slippery slope to 40 !!  YES the big "For Oh" !!

It’s not at all depressing though…. I’m cool with it.. I think it’s kinda funny people make such a big thing about it !!

So the holiday saga continues…  He still won’t commit..  He says he still wants to go but unless I bring it up he won’t say a word..  He’s just procrastinating in the hope that it’ll either be too late or I’ll forget..  It’s ok for him though, his job means he’ll be traveling around the globe alot… for me, this holiday is my only chance for escape..   I think he’s being VERY selfish !!  He doesn’t seem to realise it’s changed the whole way I look at him now…  to the point where I just want to get away from him….. Isn’t it funny how just one thing can change how you percieve people… one thing can change EVERYTHING !!!

So if he doesn’t want to go, thats fine…   I’m already looking into other options… I have a friend in California who wants me to visit and as that is where we were going on holiday anyway I think I may do just that…  it’ll be good to get away from EVERYTHING here including Martin !  He may be a little shocked though when he finds out I’m going on holiday without him ! Tuff f*%king SH*t !!

BTW, the friend I’ll be staying with was the original friend who put me onto this site over 10 years ago !!!  It’s come full circle !!

Hugz to all

Bearcub
xx