Wednesday 2/28/24

7:38a.m.Well, I’m above the dirt. I had another bad night thanks to weird dreams and nightmares Again they woke me up around 3:00. I couldn’t get back to sleep. The aides got me up late. I was in my wheelchair by 5:30. I slept in my chair for an hour. Then I called Chocolatechip. We were both grouchy and didn’t have much to say. I waited for breakfast after we talked.

Breakfast sucked this morning. Everything, including coffee, was cold. It was also skimpy. I ate a sweet roll and scrambled eggs. Grr! I called Chocolatechip but she was busy.

The day isn’t starting off on a good note. But there is no use complaining. Nobody wants to hear it anyway. Perhaps it will get better when I go to the Coffee Social and get a cup of hot coffee. Is asking for hot coffee and scrambled eggs in the morning too much to ask for?

1:28p.m. I made it to the Coffee Social. I didn’t last very long because I had an accident. I had one cup of coffee and left. Back in my room I looked at Bluetooth devices on Amazon. I guess you do not need a cord to connect to the Kindle. Somehow you can pair your device to the Bluetooth speaker. I learned that at while on Amazon. I saw one for $27.99 It’s too bad I have to wait until May to order one.

I saw my psych doctor today. I said I was doing pretty good on whatever meds I’m on. I haven’t been experiencing any paranoia and the depression has been mild. I told her about being on a pain med for over the weekend. I refuse to take it anymore because it made me sleep all the time. I also did not want to end up being a junkie.

She asked me what I’ve been reading lately. I told her about reading Peril by Bob Woodward and Robert Costa. I said it was a pretty interesting read about the last year of the Trump Presidency. I said I despise Trump but am fascinated with him at the same time. I also talked about getting a Bluetooth device to pair with my Kindle. She said said that would be a good idea.

I thought we had a good session. I called Chocolatechip when it was over. She is having a very bad day. Chocolatechip has two doctor’s appointments lined up. There was a foul up in the transportation arrangement. Then she was on the line forever with Comcast. Chocolatechip said she got an email from them saying they will charge her closed mobil app $31. She talked with a live voice that said she didn’t owe them anything. She was frustrated because she couldn’t get a straight answer.

They served lunch drinks when we finished talking. The coffee was hot this time . Lunch was delicious. They served BBQ pulled pork sandwiches. I had two with potato wedges and cookies for dessert. I ate everything I sight and did not get bloated.

I almost had a major meltdown after lunch.My briefs were rubbing against my crotch. They hurt like hell. The aides were taking care of lunch trays so they couldn’t help. I had to wait over an hour before they came to put me bed. At least I didn’t have to wait all afternoon

I’m in bed now and feeling better. It felt good to get off the hoyer pad. I’m going to read this afternoon. I’ve been kind of anxious to get back with my book.

Oh, I forgot to mention I was asked if I wanted to vote this year. I emphatically said yes. Biden is my man.

3:11p.m. This is a bad day. I feel a bit bloated. I’m not getting very good care. I have been waiting to get changed for almost an hour. I have been laying in filth at least that long I get anxious and depresses at the same time when I can’t get the help I need. Plus I’ve been obsessing oven er that damned Bluetooth device. I can’t concentrate on anything else I hate it when I can’t control my own thoughts.

4:12p.m. I feel a little calmer now. For one thing the aides changed my briefs. Then Im not obsessing over that stupid Bluetooth device. I said to myself I don’t have the money to buy it. I also said to myself it would be a bad idea to fork out the money because I don’t know how to set it up or if it would work. Rational me took over as I repeated these thoughts in my head. I’m not going to worry or think about it until I get my money from the nursing home.

This turned out to be a very bad day. I didn’t read so it was largely wasted. I hope to chill out and start to read after supper. I’m on a thirty two day in a row reading streak. I do not want to start slacking.

6:21p.m. I didn’t eat supper. I wasn’t feeling well. I had a bad case of heartburn that ruined my appetite. I had some Mylanta but that didn’t help. I called Chocolatechip. She was very depressed.She went on about Comcast and Eddie the Mooch. She said she was sick and tired of people in Misery Towers using her then dumping her after they get what they want. She was very disgusted with everything. This was a bad day for both of us.

I hope and pray tomorrow will be better.