Wednesday 10/11/23
7:43a.m. I fell asleep around 9 last night. I dreamt that Chococolatechip and I were at this very expensive motel. The room was huge. It had a kitchen, bar and dining room on one side. In the middle was a huge living room. I was wondering how we could afford such a place. I checked my wallet to discover $30. I kept yelling how are we going to pay for this? Chococolatechip said credit cards, credit cards.
Then it turned sinister. We got involved in some !ind of !murder investigation A detective came around asking questions I do not know who was murdered. He said something about a rich heiress. For some reason i said I did it. But a family member was the real killer.
Aides got me up at four o’clock today. It was way too early. I slept in my wheelchair until breakfast. I had a sweet roll and cold scrambled eggs.At least the coffee was hot. I talked with Chococolatechip after I ate. We talked for a s half hour. Then she had to get ready for a trip to the post office.
9:53a.m. I made it to the Coffee Social. I almost missed it because I was sleeping. I hope to get wakened up with extra coffee. Then I can read my book The Drawing of the Three. I’m going to have a good time. I’m not going to let paranoia stop me! Life is good.
11:13a.m. I didn’t last too long at the social. I peed a ?of and felt so embarrassed. Also the staff wasn’t too friendly. I asked for a second cup. She said at lunchtime. I didn’t want to be staying down there in wet pants anyway. So I’m made my way back to my room.
I had to complain to the nurse about not getting he!p. She was right on the ball. Aides turned out to be very nice. They put me to bed, cleaned me up and changed my briefs. I’m in bed for the day. Some days it doesn’t pay to get out of bed.
5:04p.m. This was a very bad day. I got very sick from lunch. During lunch I had a lot of incontinence episodes and very painful bm. I laid in urine and feves all afternoon. I didn’t get help until 4pm. Aide who finally came in was nasty. I’m so tired of this shit. It’s bad enough I can’t control myself. It is down right humiliating to beg for someone to change your briefs only to lie in urine and feces half the day
Despite this I managed to read a chapter in Drawing of the Three. It is a complicated story. To explain it one has to go back to the last chapter of the Gunslinger. Here Roland Deshain meets up with the man in black They have a long palaver where the man in black reads Tarot cards and predictions Roland’s, future. Roland is to draw three people from this world to help in his quest for the Dark Tower He meets up with his first partner. Eddie Dean in chapter 2 I hope to read this chapter tonight.
6:11p.m. Supper sucked. I didn’t eat much of it and I got very bloated. They didn’t even have coffee. Anyways, on a scale of one to five sto!ach pain is a five. I feel very, very sick thanks to a lousy supper.
This turned out to be a very bad day. I hope tomorrow will be better
7:58p.m. The nurse came around with evening meds. I finially got some Mylanta. That helped with the bloated feeling. I feel better now. I didn’t read because I fell asleep for an hour. I worked up and called Chocolatechip. We talked for a few minutes . Then she wanted to get ready for bed. Now that my stomach settledl I’m going to read for a while.
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