Tuesday 9/6/22
7:57am I had a fairly good night for a change. I remember one weird dream about my parents. I was dreaming that my mom and dad were separated when they first got married. In fact my dad,later in life, confessed to me about the time he was in jail or prison. I do not remember what crime he committed. In real life my parents were never separated nor were any of them in prison. It was a very weird dream.
Anyways I had a good night with little pain. I had nice aides who put me to bed at a decent hour. Then i experienced very little arthritis pain. I thought I’d be up all night obsessing over the rent but I slept good. This time the aides woke me up at 5:00. I felt rested and somewhat awake.
I did buy that Stephen King novel, Fairy Tale. I guess it was cancelled after all. But I had second thoughts. I can’t resist a good Stephen King book. I will face the consequences with the nursing home later.
Besides it’s it isn’t not all my fault why the rent is so screwed up. I have no regrets. I made every effort to pay my rent in full and on time in August and September. They screwed up both times. I will pay what I owe.It will just take longer than anticipated.
I spent an entire day yesterday fretting about the rent issue. That is a whole day out of my life I will never get back. I’m not going to waste another day worrying overc it. If the nursing home takes my money good. If they do not I will just keep the money until they realize THEIR mistake.
I’m feeling a lot better today. I’m not or upset. I’m not anxious or upset. I’m not in too much pain. Bladder seems to be under control since I didn’t pee myself during breakfast. I’m fairly awake now thanks to coffee and a good breakfast.
For breakfast I had three cups of coffee and a glass of chocolate milk Then I had a sweet roll, scrambled eggs and hot oatmeal cereal. I must of been hungry soo I ate it all. I am alive, kicking and ready to face my day. Life is good.
I plan on doing a lot of reading today. Haven’t been able to concentrate on my book, Battle Cry of Freedom. There was just too much crap going on I couldn’t concentrate. I ski0ed reading a couple of days. But I’m going to catch up on my book today It’s a good book and I want to finish it.
Oh, I called Chocolatechipp shortly before breakfast. My girlfriend is doing ok. She was going on about her busy day. Chocolatechipp has a lot of doctor’s appointments lined up? She had to call Emotive v transportation for a ride. She said this is a very involved process. Then she has to call her case manager for transport to the grocery store.n Chocolatechip said she feels a bit overwhelmed and woke up with anxiety but she will get the job done.
The she was talking a little bit about some of the drama going on in OT. Chocolatechip said this one girl Jenn must be on the outs with her friend Carol She said Jenn has been very friendly towards her when she goes outside.I said there must of been a summer blowout amongst the bitch clique chocolatechip agreed.
She didn’t ask if I bought that Stephen King book. I didn’t mention it Chocolatechip did ask if I was going to call the office. I said I’m not going to worry about it. They know where to find me. Chocolatechip did say don’t visit Amazon or spend anymore money. I agreed with thatWe talked a long until they came with breakfast drinks.
Well it is nine. Office is open. I repeat I’m not going to call. If they want their money they can call me
1:13pm I haven’t heard from the billing office. I’m not going to worry about my bill. They know howo find me wheo they want their money.
I slept a lot this morning. I was very, very tired. I also phoned Chocolatechip. She made her transportation arrangements. She finally I got her new credit card. We didn’t talk too long. Her worker was coming
I had roast turkey, broccoli, noodles a dinner roll and peaches for desert. I had two cups of coffee and a glass of fruit punch. I enjoyed my lunch and ate it all.
I saw Scott from physical therapy. He wanted to test my strength. He also wanted to see how well I could stand then get in and out of bed. I told him I just can’t do it. I said aides must help me . Apparently I start physical therapy tomorrow.
I told him about my problems with billing. Lady from PT, Darla, said they are not going to kick me out. I said someone was supposed to come down yesterday. Darla ansScott said they were probably busy. Scott did say he was going to talk to his boss about my problems.
5:13pm I wasted another day worrying about the rent situation. I really got myself so worked up I crashed big time. I got so depressed. I slept a good part of the afternoon. When awake I just sat in my wheelchair and stared at the walls.
I hate having these problems. I would rather take care of business first. I’d rather pay the nursing home their money so I can have the rest free and clear. Doing business this way makes life a lot easier. This way is turning out to be a nightmare.
I keep telling myself there is no sense in worrying about the situation. I keep telling myself worrying will only make me sick. But I can think of nothing else It keeps rolling around and around in my head every waking minute. Sleep is my only escape.
I just had Shepherd’s Pie, tomato soup a dinner roll and orange sherbet for desert. This isn’t my favorite but I ate everything except the tomato soup. I hate cold soup. I feel better after eating something.